
BanG Dream! Our Notes story · Main story, millsage
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Hotaru harbored a fear of music due to past trauma. Her savior was a genius named Kanata Sawami. One day, when Hotaru went to Kanata's BAND LIVE show, she was told an unexpected fact...
25 scenes, 3,297 lines
1. Episode 1: Rainbow-colored light
195 linesA happy ending.
A happy ending with no tears, no sorrow, and smiles blooming on every face.
And so, everyone lived happily ever after.
The end.
...!
Again, again! Read it again, please!
Again~? Haha. You never get tired of this story, do you, Hotaru?
Nope! Because everyone is happy!
Oh, right. There's a concert based on this story coming up. Want to go see it?
! Yeah!
Ever since I was little, I loved seeing people smile.
How was the concert?
It was fun! The singing and the piano were amazing! Everyone... Everyone was smiling!
Hehe. I'm glad.
I wanna...
?
I wanna... try singing and playing the piano, too!
That must have been the magic of music.
La~ la-la~...♪
A-And that's it.
That was wonderful, Hotaru! You've gotten so good at the piano! Your singing was lovely too!
!
Seeing people smile as they listened...
Mommy wants to hear more~ Can I ask for another song?
Yeah! Hehe.
made my heart feel warm too.
When I made music with a happy heart...
La, la...♪
(Huh...? Why is everything...)
(so sparkly...?)
(Wow, amazing...! It's so pretty!)
...the whole world seemed to shine in rainbow colors.
A competition?
Yes. Your teacher said you should give it a try.
Hotaru-chan, you play so, so much better than most kids your age.
A competition is different from a recital, so it might feel a little overwhelming at first... though I think more people should get to hear you play, Hotaru-chan.
What do you think, Hotaru?
I want to try!
If I play well, everyone will smile, right?
And that was my happiness too.
Next is the middle elementary grades division. The Gold Prize goes to... Hotaru Shiomi-san.
!
This is amazing, Hotaru! You won Gold!
Gold Prize...
That means your performance touched everyone!
...! I did it...!
I believed those rainbow colors were proof that my music had made someone happy.
It was the light I felt whenever I gave a really good performance.
It felt like God Himself was praising me, so I believed they had to be something wonderful.
But...
Why is Hotaru-chan always the one who wins gold?! I'm trying just as hard!!
Huh...?
The teachers said it too. They said Hotaru-chan's on a whole different level. That you're a genius.
Then go take an advanced course or something. Piano isn't fun with you here, Hotaru-chan!
...!
Yeah, exactly. Everyone who quit said the same thing. They said it was because of you, Hotaru-chan!
Wait, Hotaru-chan... You seriously didn't know? Yikes.
...
My music, and that rainbow light...
...seemed like something bad, something that hurt people.
"The Angel of the Music World..." Such a shame. She used to win gold all the time, and now look how low she ranks.
It's not unusual, is it? A child prodigy grows up and becomes perfectly ordinary.
But even then, I couldn't quit music.
So...
Don't look. Don't look. Just keep playing...
Hotaru, are you really sure you're done with competitions?
Yeah... I still enjoy just playing the piano.
Do you? Well, if you're happy, that's what matters... I'm just happy I still get to hear you play, Hotaru.
...
Oh, that's right. I brought home some information on Geijutsu. It looks like their middle school has a music department too.
They offer all kinds of courses, but for you, Hotaru... The piano, I suppose. You've loved the piano ever since you were tiny.
Yeah... I guess so.
That wasn't a lie.
But little by little, I no longer knew how to face music.
Hello, Shiomi-san!
H-Hello!
This is the first time we've had seats next to each other. We didn't get to talk much in first year, so I'm glad.
So, the whole class is doing a little get-together after this. You should come too, Shiomi-san!
Huh...? Is that really okay?
Of course! The teacher even said we could use the music room! We're gonna introduce ourselves with a little ensemble...
!
Oh... I-I'm sorry! I just remembered I have something to do today...!
Um, so... please excuse me!
Shiomi-san, wait...
What if I saw those rainbow colors again?
What if that hurt someone again?
Just thinking about it made me anxious. Scared.
*Pant*...!
*Pant*...
Everyone else was facing the music so earnestly, and all I could do was run away. I felt ashamed.
Before I knew it, I was keeping my distance not only from competitions, but from people too.
...
I really wanted to go.
...?
(What's that...? People are gathering.)
(Piano... and singing?)
(Right... There was a street piano here, I think.)
Hey, hey, heeey~!
You all just gonna stand there spacing out? Come on, my audience! Give me something to work with!
What do you have hands and feet for? What do you have a heart for?
To make it beat!
(Wh-What is with her...!?)
(Is she... working the crowd?)
Hear something good? Throw your hands up! Come on, vibe with me!
(! She's incredible...)
(Wait, is that how you're supposed to play a street piano...?)
♪
(But... what is this?)
(The more I listen to her music... the more I...)
All right, hands up already! Or clap your hands! Mine are busy, so I need you all!
Ahaha! What is this? She's ridiculous!
Should we try it? It looks fun!
...!
Mommy, I wanna do it too!
Sure. Let's do what she's doing!
(Everyone's actually joining in...!)
Yeah, that's it! You guys are the best!
(She's smiling... and so is everyone listening...!)
Hm? Hey, you! Yeah, you, the one staring off into space!
...?
Yeah, you. You! The one giving off sad little puppy vibes!
Huh...? M-Me!?
Listen, I seriously hate seeing someone look bored when I'm playing my music!
I'm delicate, okay!
I-I'm sorry!?
Come here, come here! Sit next to me!
Huh...? But next to you...
Just do it! Come on, sit!
O-Okay...
Hands out! Put them on the keys! And then...
Play however you want!
Whaaaat!?
I-I can't do that...! I don't even know the song you're playing...!
Huh... So you didn't say you can't play.
Ah...
I knew it! You smell like someone who can play. Now that I know, play already! Play!
But... my playing isn't...
Haah? What are you talking about?
Music's something you can do however you want. Obviously.
!
Here, copy the phrase I play! Then I'll go wild on top of it!
Ugh...
(I don't think anything I say will get me out of this...)
(If I'm only copying her, maybe... it'll be okay?)
You can do it, miss!
Relax, you got this~
All right, here we go!
Y-Yes!
...!
(How long has it been...)
(Since I faced the piano like this?)
Oh... Whoa!? Wait, you're actually pretty good!
Hehe. Not bad at all!
Wooow! That girl is amazing!!
This is so fun~~! More, more! Ahaha!
(Since I've seen people smile as they listened?)
All right, you take the melody too! Special privilege, just for you!
(Huh...?)
(I'm not afraid to touch the keys anymore...)
*Pant*...
Geez. You really played piano with that face right to the very end.
Huh...?
You didn't notice? You looked like you had a stomachache the whole time.
Oh... My stomach is fine.
Listen. I want every single person who hears my music to be happy.
...!
I dunno what you're carrying around, but...
you're the only one here making that face, you know?
Come on, look.
That was so fun! Thank you both!
One more song, please!
Mommy, I wanna play the piano, too!
Hehe, thank you, thank you! You're all gonna have sweet dreams tonight!
(Everyone is smiling...)
(Even though this is so different from the music I know...!)
This is amazing...
(I want to play music like this too...)
(Music that can make everyone happy... the way hers does.)
(Music that exists for someone else...!)
*Sniff*...
Huh? What?! Hey, why are you crying?!
Huh...? Wait...
Whoa, whoa, hold up! This makes it look like I made you cry! D-Do you want me to play something?
Do you know Nikopan-chan? That baby goat anime? I'll play the OP for you!
Nikopan-chan's great, right? She's got a pretty sharp tongue, like, "Guess I gotta dance!" and...
Hehe...
Hey, you laughed!
Sorry... I was just a little surprised.
Um... may I ask your name?
Me? I'm Kanata. Kanata Sawami.
It was the spring of my second year in middle school.
Into my heavy, suffocating world...
Kanata-san...
Would you teach me music?
A dazzling light came pouring in.
2. Episode 2: Treasure
130 linesThank you very much...!
Hotaru-chan~, your piano playing was wonderful today as always!
We'll keep cheering you on~!
! Hehe. Thank you so much!
(Okay...!)
(I think I played better than usual today.)
(No rainbow colors are showing up, and there are more people smiling for me now...!)
Hotaru! Kanata didn't come by again today, huh?
Ah... I guess not. Her band must be keeping her busy.
Aww... I want to see you two play together again~
It'll be okay! I'm sure she'll come back soon.
Wow...! I'll look forward to it!
Yeah! Leave it to me!
On that day one year ago...
After I met Kanata-san, we started playing piano together here from time to time.
E-everyone...!
H-Ha... Ha... Hands...!
Oh? Is today the day you finally say it?
Ra... raise... raise your...
Keep going! You're almost there!
~~~!
Please... raise your hands...
Gaaah, come on! There you go being a goody-goody again! You're supposed to say, "Get those hands up!"
Keep that up and you'll never play like me, y'know?
Ugh...
Whatever happened to "my master's word is law?"
B-But...! I still don't think it's right to tell the audience what to do!
Man, you really don't get it. That's not telling them what to do. It's communication. A conversation!
You've gotta reach out and pull 'em in yourself! That's what you're after, right? "Music that makes everyone happy."
Ugh... I know, but...!
Band lives are all kinda like that, y'know? Like, "You ready?!" "Yeeaah!" Stuff like that.
I've never been to a live, so I wouldn't know...
Ah... Mom said no, huh? No live houses until you're in high school, right?
Right...
Well, if that's how your family does things, I guess there's no helping it. Still, I really wish you'd come see my band's live sometime.
Your band... millsage, right? I've always wanted to go, but... ugh.
Well, maybe a live house would be too much for our little goody-goody Hotaru~
Ugh, I want to be in high school already...!
You're in your second year of middle school now, so... that's still about two years away. Long time. Haha.
I really wanted to show you my incredible band, too.
I want to see it! I absolutely, absolutely want to see it...!
Because, Kanata-san... I just know you'd be so, so cool up there, singing and playing with your band!
In two years, I promise I'll be there! Just wait for me!
...
Hahaha, yeah! I'm super cool, obviously. You'd better come see me someday.
Yes!
And y'know, my members are cooool too~
It started out with me and two childhood friends. And those two are seriously such a pain, it's hilarious.
"And the two who joined later are total weirdos, which makes it the best band ever." I know... Hehe. You've told me that one a bunch of times.
Huh? Well, listen to me talk about it some more! You're my apprentice, after all! I'm delicate, y'know?
Hehe... Kanata-san, you really do love millsage, don't you?
Of course! More than anything, I just want them to be happy.
They're my treasure.
...!
Treasure...
But about six months ago...
(Kanata-san isn't coming... I wonder what happened.)
!
(A message... It's from Kanata-san.)
Hotaru
Sorry I flaked on our promise🙇♀️
Some stuff came up, so I might not be able to see you for a while🥺
You said you wanted to make music like mine, and now I'm making you wait. My bad‼️
But y'know, "music that makes everyone happy..."
If anyone can make that happen, it's you, Hotaru!
...!
(Kanata-san...!)
There's your homework until next time. When we meet again, let me hear it.
That happy music of yours, Hotaru.👍
See ya! 👋
After that message, Kanata-san stopped coming here.
...
Um! Could you maybe play one more song~?
Ah, yes! Of course!
Since then, I've kept making music here.
So that the next time I see Kanata-san, I can give her my answer to that homework.
I'm still not very good at it. But I want to make the kind of music that can make everyone happy, like Kanata-san's...
Well then... This is a song by my friend... or rather, my master's band...
(I still haven't been to one of their lives, but we played this together here so many times that I remember it.)
(It's a really wonderful song, and I love it.)
♪
...!
It really is a millsage song... She's playing it...!
Whew...
(I wonder if everyone who listened is smiling...)
…
(Huh? Is that person staring at me...?)
Ah...!
S-Sorry! You're waiting your turn, right!? I'll switch with you right away, so could you wait just...
Ah, no, that's not it!
You're the girl from that video... right?
The girl from that video?
Here, this video. The one titled "Mysterious Street Piano Girl Plays Insanely Well."
Huh...? Wh-What is this!? That's me!
Ah, so someone really did upload it without asking...
Yes...
I see... Sorry, I startled you. It's been getting a little attention on social media.
That got me curious, so I came to see you, but...
I don't really understand social media...
I see. Then it might be better to ask someone who knows about filing a takedown request.
Oh, sorry for springing all this on you... I'm Mahoro Hamasaki, a second-year high school student at Minase Girls' Academy.
I promise I'm not suspicious, so don't worry... Okay?
Ah... My name is Hotaru Shiomi.
...!
? Is something wrong?
Ah... no. Nothing.
Um... do you always play piano here? You're really good.
Thank you. Kanata-san used to... Oh, um, someone used to play here with me...
But she's been busy lately, and I haven't been able to see her much.
I see...
Um, listen. Actually, I...
Ah! There she is, the girl from the video!
It really is her! She's so cute! Excuse me, could we request something!?
What!? Ah, um...
You always play that millsage song, right? "everscape"!
That song is so good!
...!
Um, you know millsage?
Yeah. They're pretty well-known around here, aren't they?
They have a live this weekend too~
They do!? I-I had no idea...
Oh, are you interested?
This is a flyer for that show. We have a few, so take one if you would like!
Wow, thank you!
(That's right...! If I go to their live, I should be able to see Kanata-san!)
(If waiting won't bring her here, I'll go see her.)
(There's still a year left on my promise with Mom... and I thought maybe I would be a bother, but...)
(Still, I want to see Kanata-san!)
Huh...? Mahoro-san?
(Did she leave...?)
3. Episode 3: A world without you
154 lines(Th-This is a live house...!)
(I made it... I finally made it here!)
(Ugh, Mom, I'm sorry...)
...
(But...)
(Since I was told I couldn't come until high school, I thought it was going to be some kind of dangerous place...)
(But it's actually pretty clean, and there are lots of students here too...)
(It's not that scary... Far from it, in fact...)
(It kind of feels like I've grown up a little, and my heart won't stop racing...!)
Hwah! Kyah!
I-I'm sorry! I wasn't watching where I was going...
No, no, I should be the one apologizing. Are you all right?
Yes, I'm fine.
I'm glad to hear that. It would be dreadful if I'd caused any harm to someone as lovely as you.
Um... what...?
Could this be your first time at a live house?
Huh...!?
Hehe. So I was right♪ You were looking around with such wonder in your eyes.
(I-I guess it was really obvious... How embarrassing...)
But I understand how you feel. There is something "special" about live houses, after all.
Huh?
A dim, cramped box, packed to the brim with people...
Every last person here came chasing music, driven by their own desires.
When you think about it that way... it's kind of thrilling, isn't it? ♪
U-Um... what...?
Enjoy your first live, all right? Well then.
...
(Looks like there are all kinds of people here...)
(Right, Kanata-san!)
(But... I don't see any sign of her...)
(I wonder if there's a dressing room here, like the concert hall...)
(But once the show starts, she'll definitely come out on stage...!)
(Will she notice me? I bet she'll be surprised.)
Hehe...
(I can't wait.)
Good evening~!
!
We're up first, and we're gonna get this place fired up... so let's go!
(I-It's starting...!)
(Kanata-san... isn't there. This must be a different band from millsage.)
(Huh? There aren't any seats... Is everyone going to watch standing up like this?)
(Wow... This is nothing like a competition.)
Get those hands up~!
!
(This is... what Kanata-san was talking about!)
(Wow, wow! They really do say it...!)
Hehe...
(She was right... This might actually be fun!)
Thank you! The final band is up next. Let's hear it for them!
(It was over before I knew it...)
(So this is what a live feels like...!)
(The sound is so much louder than a concert. And the stage is so close to the audience.)
(The music... hits my whole body... like a wall of sound.)
That's amazing...
(I wonder what Kanata-san's live will be like...)
(I've heard her sing and play the piano up close so many times...)
(I wonder what kind of music she'll play to make everyone happy...)
The last band is millsage, right?
!
(Finally... I finally get to see her.)
Oh, that's the one, right? The tragedy band.
Yeah. I'm honestly surprised they're still going.
But lately? They've been pretty underwhelming.
...?
(Tragedy...?)
Good evening, we're millsage!
Ah...!
(They're here...!)
!?
(Mahoro-san...?! The girl I met the other day? She's in the band...!)
(And that mysterious girl from earlier is here too...!)
Huh...?
(The performance already started, but...)
(Kanata-san hasn't come out.)
(But I'm sure this is Kanata-san's song...)
(And Mahoro-san is the one singing... not Kanata-san...)
(I can hear the piano... but there isn't one anywhere onstage...)
(And...)
♪
(What is it about this song...?)
(I know this song. It should be beautiful.)
(But it sounds so, so sad.)
...
(Kanata-san never came out, not even at the end...)
(Maybe she wasn't feeling well...?)
(I wish I could have seen Kanata-san today, but...)
(At least, if I could talk to Mahoro-san and ask her to tell Kanata-san I was here...)
Hey, you there. This area is staff-only.
!
Oh, um...! I wanted to talk to Mahoro-san...
Are you... one of Mahoro's problem fans? If so, I can't let you see her.
P-Problem...? I-I don't think so...!
Okay, okay, everyone says that. Sorry, but her time outside of the live is private.
Um, well...
M-My name is Hotaru Shiomi...! If you could tell Mahoro-san, I think she'll know who I am...
...!
Sorry, can I hear your name again...?
Huh...? Hotaru Shiomi.
...
(Is my name... really that strange...?)
!
Houka... Heading home already?
Yes. But before I go, the store manager would like to speak with me.
I see. So... did you get in touch with Natsume-senpai?
No... she left it unread again.
Oh...? It's you from earlier.
H-Hello...
So you're a fan of Nagi-san. Of course you are. Nagi-san does have a fan club at school, after all.
That's not it. She's here for Mahoro.
This is... Hotaru Shiomi-san.
...!
(She reacted the same way...)
Can you stay a little longer?
I don't mind.
(Does that mean... they don't suspect me anymore...?)
Mahoro, is now a good time? You have a visitor.
Hotaru Shiomi-san.
...!
Yeah, I'm coming.
! Mahoro-san.
Hello... Hotaru-chan.
You really came...
Sorry. It's a little hectic after the live. And the corridor isn't the best place to talk, so...
I'm sorry... for showing up like this.
No, don't be. I'm the one who should apologize. Sorry about the other day.
I was going to explain it all back then, but...
I must have caught you off guard with today's live too...
...? No...
(Explain...?)
Mahoro-san, did you already know Shiomi-san?
I wouldn't say I know her that well... The other day, I saw Hotaru-chan playing the piano and went up to talk to her.
You know that video that's been getting some buzz? The one with the girl playing the street piano.
That girl is Hotaru-chan.
Oh...
She was playing "everscape" in the video, so... I couldn't stop thinking about it.
...
You came today... to see Kanata, right?
Y-Yes! I thought I'd be able to see her if I came to the live, but...
...
...?
(Why does the air feel so heavy...?)
(Something deep in my chest feels unsettled...)
Um... did Kanata-san take the day off today? Maybe she caught a cold or something?
Th-Then that's totally okay. I'll come see another live sometime.
Kanata-san has helped me so, so much... I wouldn't be who I am today without her.
But then, at some point, I couldn't see her anymore. And I've been worried about her ever since...!
...
Mahoro-san...?
She isn't here.
Huh...?
Not anywhere in this world.
Kanata is already... gone.
Huh...? What do you mean, gone...?
She passed away from an illness six months ago.
4. Episode 4: Those days
208 lines...
W-Wait, please. Um... what?
No... I can't believe this...
But... Kanata-san was so full of life. Whenever I saw her, she always seemed so happy...!
...
Yeah... We felt the same way.
Kanata had a condition she was born with. She'd been in and out of the hospital since she was little.
But after we formed the band... Once we started high school, she said she'd be okay...
Things were going well with the band, too...
...!
Oh, that's the one, right? The tragedy band.
(Tragedy...)
(So that's why Mahoro-san was singing instead of Kanata-san...)
(Why it sounded so sad...)
(All of it...)
No...
(She said... she'd see me again...!)
(She helped me so much... so, so much...!)
(And I still...!)
(I never even... got to say thank you...!)
...
I'm sorry... I should have told you when we first met.
I'm really sorry this is how you had to find out...
No...
I was the one who got my hopes up... You didn't do anything wrong, Mahoro-san. Really...
...
So... so...!
Ngh...
Ugh... waaaaaah...!
*Sniff*... I-I'm sorry... for breaking down like this.
No, it's okay. Here, tissues. Use these.
Thank you... *Sniff*...
...
We've heard a lot about you. From Kanata.
Yes. She spoke very highly of your piano playing.
She would get all smug and say, "Hotaru makes seriously amazing music. She is my prized apprentice."
Kanata-san...
Kanata-san... Kanata-san told me so much about everyone in millsage, too.
She said all of you were the best... that all of you were her treasure.
...!
So that's why... you're still going, right?
Even after Kanata-san... left us. You are still here, as a band...
...
Mahoro. Should I say it?
No... I will. I'll explain it myself, all the way through.
I owe you the truth, Hotaru-chan. You were Kanata's apprentice, after all.
Mahoro-san...?
Hotaru-chan, will you hear me out?
About us, and Kanata... about everything millsage has been through. And about where we go from here.
Ever since we were little, it had always been the three of us: Kanata, Nagi-chan, and me.
Kanata, always charging headfirst into everything with everything she had.
Me, getting swept along in her wake and trying to keep up. Nagi-chan, somehow always going along with us in the end.
I used to think... we were the ultimate trio of childhood friends.
Most of the time, Kanata was so energetic, over-the-top, and foul-mouthed that you'd never believe she was sick...
But sometimes, she'd be in the hospital for long stretches.
In our third year of middle school, she was in the hospital for a really long time... I was so worried back then...
I wonder if Kanata's still not getting any better... And today was supposed to be the start of a new school year...
She's been in the hospital for a while this time, hasn't she? We haven't even heard from her since we visited last week...
Definitely. Took forever, didn't it?
Yeah... Huh?
Yo.
K-Kanata!?
Hehe. Surprise!
You scared me... Finally getting out of the hospital?
Yep! Kanata Sawami is fully, totally back!
Just when you thought I was done for, I go and flip the script! Pretty hype entrance, right?
...!
Whoa!? H-Hey, what the heck, Mahoro!?
I'm so glad... I'm so glad...!
Huh? Wait, are you crying!?
This one's kind of on you, Kanata.
You were in the hospital longer than usual, and you told us not to visit! I thought... maybe...! I was worried about you!
C'mon... I said I was sorry...!
The doctor said after this hospital stay, I'm all good. Cured for real, y'know?
What!?
Really?
For real. So don't be too mad, okay...?
~~~! Fine, you're forgiven!
Haha. There you go.
I'm forgiven~!
Wait, if you're wearing your uniform, does that mean you're back at school too?
Yup! That means the ultimate trio is finally back together!
Ah... This is going to get loud.
Come on, Nagi. You say that, but you're happy, right~?
Let's leave it at that.
Man, you're bad at being honest~
Anyway, today, I've got something to tell you two!
Huh? Not the "I'm out of the hospital" announcement?
A love confession, maybe?
Yes, I love you!
Huh. I was right.
A band! Let's start one! The three of us!
Huh...?
A b-b-b-band?! I don't know how to play any instruments!
Same here.
Relax, I've played the piano before!
I know that! I'm saying I'm the one who's never done this before...
Come on, it'll be fine. Pleeease~?
We can do practice camps, play school festival lives, all that stuff! Let's make the whole world remember our music!
...!
Mahoro... You're kidding, right? You're not seriously getting swayed by this, are you?
H-Huh~? N-No, no, nothing like that...
Yeah, she's caving.
W-Well... It sounds kind of like one of those classic high school memories. And I actually really like that kind of thing...
Yes! Then Mahoro's in!
Yeah. I've got you and Nagi-chan with me, Kanata! I'm starting to feel like we can make this work.
I never said I was in...
N-Nagi-chan...!
*Sigh*... Fine. I'll do it, but I don't know much about bands.
So even if you two come running to me for help like always, there won't be much I can do.
I know, I know~! Leave it to the great Kanata, the one who started this whole thing!
This pattern has never once ended without a hitch...
I-I'll help too! Okay?
All right! Our ultimate band life starts now~!
Whoa! They actually brought the piano in! This place is awesome, like our own secret base!
But Nagi-chan, are you sure it's okay for us to use this garage?
Yeah. My older sister used to practice basketball here... But nobody uses the place anymore.
Nice! Practice space problem solved!
Happy to be of service.
Ahaha. So... that leaves one more problem we need to solve, right?
What are you guys up to...?
So? Feel like joining our band now?
Like hell I do! You dragged me all the way here by force!
I mean, come on~ You were just up on the roof playing guitar all by yourself~
So obviously I had to invite you!
Kanata... You're skipping way too many steps.
What is her deal?! No matter how many times I told her to let go, she wouldn't listen! I'm going home.
I-I'm so sorry! Kanata caused you a lot of trouble...
Um, your name is...
Natsume Izawa...
Yep! Same age as me and Mahoro! Different class, though.
Now that you mention it... I think we might have crossed paths before...?
Hmph. Unlike you mediocrities, I don't need to flock together with anyone.
M-Mediocrities...?
Right... I remember now. You're that rumored senior who took over the roof and won't let anyone near.
A girl in my class mentioned it.
You're in middle school, right? What year?
Huh? I'm a second-year.
Hmph. I'm a third-year. Do you get what that means?
Uh... Sure.
Hey, why are you saying no to the band? You're good at guitar, so why not~?
You're basically all beginners, aren't you? I'm not interested in hanging around with bad players.
I can play the piano, you know?
Sure. Probably "Chopsticks" or something.
Hey now, that hurts~ I'm delicate, y'know?
If you're gonna talk like that, I'll grace you with a listen. My piano.
Though I dunno if a lonely roof guitarist like you will get how good it is~
Bring it on. Since we're here, I'll do you the favor of playing along.
Oh yeah?
I'm going to improvise a phrase. You listen, then come in wherever you want.
I'll show you just how far out of your league I am.
Okay, okay, a jam session it is! Good thing I had them bring the upright piano in!
N-Nagi-chan, is this really okay...? Doesn't this feel kind of like a showdown now...?
It'll turn out however it turns out. This is Kanata we're talking about.
If by some miracle you manage to impress me, I might even consider joining your band.
Still, it's not like a genius guitarist like me could ever lose to some amateur like you.
And after that jam-session showdown, there were four of us.
From there, we practiced and practiced, and our first live was a huge success.
Our first time playing at a live house, our first cheers, our first applause... Every bit of it made my heart race...
I felt light and floaty, like something was gently tickling my heart.
Ready...
Cheeeers!!
Phew... So good!
Aha. You sound like an old man.
Come on! It's the after-party for our first live! And it was a huge success!
I was playing, so of course it was a success.
Exactly! My eye for talent was spot-on even back then!
Natsume, your guitar was seriously cool!
Yeah... whatever.
Hehe. Natsume-chan, you like being called cool, don't you?
Of course I do. It means stylish and awesome, doesn't it?
R-Right...
What? If you've got something to say, say it.
Natsume-chan! Cool! Cool down!
That's not the cool I meant!
Eek!
Okay, sorry, but let's call it there. Go easy on her, please.
There it is, Mahoro's knight.
Not just Mahoro, actually. And as for the knight thing, it's more like I have no choice...
Nagi! Look at this, a huge crab! It was walking right over there!
Mm. This crab has a home too, so let's let it go.
Nagiii-chan... I spilled my juice...
All right, all right. Will a handkerchief and some wet wipes do?
So... what were we talking about again?
Are you sure... you're younger than these people?
Aha. I get that a lot.
Excuse me!
...?
I'm sorry to interrupt. My name is... Houka Izumi.
Oh... You're one of the girls from yesterday's band battle.
My, yes. To think you remembered someone like me...!
What do you want?
I must confess... After yesterday's live show, I became a fan of yours, Kanata-san...♡
Wow...
A-A-A-A fan?!
Why Kanata and not me...!?
Ahahaha! Guess my charisma got to you!
Yes... And on that note, there is a favor I would very much like to ask of you...
Yeah, yeah, go ahead. Autograph, handshake, whatever you want.
Getting cocky...
Would you please... allow me to join your band, Kanata-san?
Huh...
Sure!
Whaaaat!?
She didn't even hesitate...
What? It's fine, isn't it? She seems pretty interesting!
Thank you so much...! I promise I'll do my very best♡
And that was how our band officially began as a five-piece.
5. Episode 5: Sleeping quietly
159 linesAfter that, our noisy, chaotic days went on.
Then summer came.
I'm telling you, this phrase is way better! It'll get the crowd fired up at lives!
I don't care about getting the crowd fired up. I care about the song's artistry.
Ugh, why don't you get it...!?
That's my line. Perfect timing. Let's use that to settle this.
Hey, nice~~ Guess we're on the same page there, at least.
Natsume, let's do a jam session!
Um... Those two have already started jamming... Is it okay to just leave them to it?
Yeah, it's fine. Once they get like that, they usually find a way to land.
Yeah, exactly. We're pretty used to it by now~ I guess this is just how we do things.
Yes! Total victory!! The great Kanata is unstoppable~~!!
I didn't lose! I haven't lost yet!
Oh yeah? Then shouldn't it be, "Please, let me jam with you again?"
...
So, uh... You said you were a Kanata fan, but... did that disappoint you?
No...
I think this hot-blooded side of Kanata-san is ever so lovely too♡
Ahaha... Aha...
Autumn came, and then winter.
...
What are we gonna do now...!? It's not even morning anymore, it's already noon!
Who said we were here for a practice camp!? All we did was talk and play games all night!
Well... You were totally enjoying it too, Natsume-senpai.
Ugh...
Mahoro-san, please wake up.
Mmm... Seconds, please...
My, how delightfully cliché.
Mahoro! How long are you gonna keep sleeping!?
Huh? Ah!
Haha. Still not a morning person, huh?
Hehe... Ahaha~
Hm? Is something the matter, Kanata-san?
Nah... I was just thinking how stupidly happy I am right now. And that gave me a good idea.
What? Wait, a phrase for a new song!?
Nah. A band name.
A band name...? You mean, not "Aqua Rapids?"
That was just a placeholder. I've been thinking... we need a real name!
And... I just came up with a good one.
Mm... Sorry... What are we talking about again...?
Kanata says she came up with our real band name.
Yup. A seriously awesome one.
millsage
So... what's the meaning behind this "real" band name?
Yeah, so this is...
We laughed, had fun, and played lots of lives. They were special, yet ordinary days.
The seasons kept turning. Before we knew it, we were in high school, and it had been a little over one year since we formed the band.
Hotaru Shiomi-chan?
Yeah. I met her recently. She's seriously amazing on piano, y'know.
For you to speak so highly of her, Kanata-san... She must be truly remarkable.
I would love to meet her someday... But of course, Kanata-san, you are still my number one♡
Well... I dunno. That girl might actually be better than me.
Might?
Yeah. I dunno why, but she always holds something back when she plays.
It sounds like she's in pain... or something.
If she'd just go all out, she'd be absolutely unreal.
Who knows? Maybe that's all she's actually got.
Nah, I can tell. Hotaru's the real deal when it comes to music.
I mean, she's my apprentice, after all.
Then came September of last year.
Sorry! It took me longer to get into my outfit than I thought...
Took you long enough, Mahoro! Look, the gym's packed!
! Wow... Th-This is crazy...! Is the whole school here!?
Hmph. Looks like our talent is finally getting the recognition it deserves.
The final act on the cultural festival stage... Well, would you look at that.
This is so different from last year. Our middle school festival was kind of a disaster.
You could actually count the people in the audience.
Thirteen.
Haha, brutal, Natsume~ Even delicate little me took a serious hit back then...
But! Now look at this full house! And our outfits are perfect. How is that not hype!?
Yeah!
Hehe. Mahoro-san, your outfit seems to fit you just fine too.
Yeah...! This is amazing. It's so cool! It feels like... like we're a real band!
Aha. We were already a band, weren't we?
W-We were! But that's not what I mean!
Um, how do I put it... Right!
Right now, I feel like my whole life is about to begin!
...!
Haha, nice. Until we step off this stage, the five of us are the main characters.
Let's scream our lungs out!
And let 'em hear us say, "We're right here!"
Yeah...!
Yo, everybody! Thanks for coming! Enjoying the festival? Yeah, of course you are!
Now let me introduce... the best bandmates I could ever ask for!
On guitar, Natsume Izawa!
And our other guitarist, Nagi Kotohira!
On bass, Mahoro Hamasaki!
On drums, Houka Izumi!
And last but not least! On keyboard and vocals, Kanata Sawami!
Together, the five of us are millsage! Now let's get the music started!
Let's make this a night no one ever forgets!
That was the last time... the five of us ever played live together.
And then, just a few weeks later...
On a clear autumn day,
Kanata quietly passed away.
...
Why...? Why...!?
We were just... getting started...! This was supposed to be just the beginning...!
You have to... take responsibility for this...!!
...
That's right.
I'm... I am angry. After making me fall so deeply for all of this, how could you disappear?
That is far too cruel.
But... But...
I'm still... so very sad.
Hey... Kanata.
Why did you keep quiet about how much time you had left?
Since the day we formed the band...? That's just...!
We could've handled this... so much better...!
You idiot. Seriously...!
What do I do...
I...
What am I supposed to do...?
That was six months ago.
After that... we all talked it over. About what to do with millsage.
We knew it wouldn't really be millsage's music without Kanata...
Even so... I was the one who asked everyone to keep the band going.
So... that's what happened.
My feelings are still... all over the place.
But if I hadn't come here today, I... would've gone on never knowing the truth.
So... thank you, for telling me all of this.
No... I'm the one who should be thanking you for coming.
I'm glad I got to tell you... before it all ends.
Huh...?
...
millsage. We've decided to disband.
What...!?
After Kanata's funeral, Natsume-senpai... our lead guitarist, stopped coming around.
She said, "There's no point without Kanata," and "I don't want to play."
She even began keeping her distance... from us.
I think she's hurting so much... I am too... We all are...
We can't make her stay by our side when she's hurting so much, can we?
...
So for the time being, the three of us decided we'd do what we could, but...
The truth is, the music we made as a five-piece is simply hard to perform as a trio.
Mahoro-san, in particular, ended up carrying far too much of that weight.
...
So the three of us talked about whether continuing like this was truly the right thing to do.
The band... If there's a way to keep it alive, I want to.
But if that means making Mahoro push herself past her limits... then that isn't right.
Yes. And our audience's response is no longer what it was when there were five of us.
I think it's important to preserve our memories as something beautiful, too.
So... that's why you're disbanding...
Yeah... that's right.
No...
Kanata-san told me... millsage was her treasure...!
...
...!
(I can't.)
(Someone like me... has no right to step in.)
(I don't know anything about this band... or any of them...)
I'm sorry... I shouldn't have said anything...
No... Thank you, Hotaru-chan.
I'd love for you to come see our last live, if you can.
Oh, we haven't picked a date or anything yet, though.
I see...
Hotaru-chan... Thank you for caring enough about Kanata to cry for her...
(But...)
(Is this really... how it should end...?)
6. Episode 6: Both hands full
156 lines...
(I feel like I'm floating.)
(Every sound around me feels so far away.)
(It feels like I'm wrapped in a thin, invisible veil.)
Kanata-san...
(Some part of me still can't believe it.)
(That I'll never see her again.)
So... that's why you're disbanding...
Yeah... that's right.
(Mahoro-san looked like she was in so much pain.)
(But when she talked about their memories, her expression was so soft.)
(Could the band... really just end like this...?)
Hehe... Kanata-san, you really do love millsage, don't you?
Of course! I hope they would be happy.
They're my treasure.
...!!
Hah... hah...!
(Kanata-san, Kanata-san, Kanata-san!)
(Maybe someone like me can't change anything...!)
(Maybe I won't be any help at all...!)
(But...!)
(Kanata-san's treasure...)
(The music you left behind in this world...)
(I can't stand the thought of it... disappearing!)
(I still haven't given anything back to you...! After you gave me so much... so much...!)
(At the very least... the happiness you wished for everyone, Kanata-san...!)
(If I can change this ending, even just a little, so everyone doesn't have to be left grieving...! Then I...!)
Houka-chan, are you sure you don't want to join another band? You even got an invitation...
Yes. The band I belong to now is my coffin.
Your coffin...? That's really not a good way to put it.
(That was my intent from the very beginning. This band was to be my coffin. And yet, that wish can no longer come true.)
(Then at least... even if I must go on as one who failed to die... I will leave the musician I was here.)
I know what happened, but... I still can't help wishing you'd keep playing in a band.
If I could, that would be the greatest happiness of all.
That's such a shame. You've got all that talent, Houka-chan.
I wonder about that...
You were on vocals before you joined millsage, after all. I think you could do perfectly well that way too.
Hehe. Such lavish praise is more than someone like me deserves.
Right, that reminds me. That long-haired girl who came by the dressing room today... Was she someone you know, Houka-chan?
Ah... You mean Shiomi-san? Today was our first meeting.
Are you familiar with her?
Not personally, no. Videos of her playing street piano have been getting some attention lately.
She was really famous in the classical music world when she was a kid. People called her the "Angel of the Music World." She was a prodigy!
Apparently she doesn't enter competitions anymore these days. But I've seen her play, and she was unbelievable.
My... You are rather well informed.
My niece used to play piano, that's why. Here, this is the video that got all that buzz.
...!
(Remarkable...!)
Hah, hah...! Um, excuse me!
My...♪
Wait, it's really her!? Why is she here!?
Hah... hah...! Is... Is Mahoro-san still here!?
If it is Mahoro-san you are looking for, I'm afraid she has already gone home. Did you need something from her?
Ah... um...! It's about millsage...! ...(Deep breath)...
Is there anything... I can do to help...!?
!
I-I'm sorry. I know it must sound strange, some outsider suddenly saying this...
Like, what do I know about any of this...!? I-I think that too...
But... I...!
I could tell how precious millsage was to all of you.
And I'm sure Kanata-san felt the same way.
She talked so much about millsage... and she smiled when she did. She called it her treasure, and said she wanted all of you to be happy...!
So... please! Don't let the band end!
There has to be a future, where all of you can still be happy!
...
(How very greedy...)
(So childlike, so rough around the edges.)
(And perhaps that is precisely why...)
I have taken your feelings... to heart.
!
However, it is already rather late tonight...
If you would not mind, perhaps we could speak again properly another day♪
Are you really sure... you're okay going home alone?
I told you, I'll be fine. You're having dinner with your family, right? Then you should hurry and meet up with them.
But...
You worry too much. I'm still the older one here, you know, Nagi-chan.
Then... maybe it's about time you learned to wake up on your own in the morning, big sister.
Urk... Let's say that's a separate issue...
It's still cold at night, don't make any detours. Call me if anything happens.
No practice today either. Get some proper rest, okay?
Okaaay.
Do you really get it, though?
See you, then.
Yeah. Thanks.
...
Nagi-chan used to be so much cuter...
Somewhere along the way, she went and got so cool. Makes me look like the unreliable one, doesn't it?
Well... I guess I really am unreliable.
...
Hey... Kanata.
I still remember what we talked about that day.
There you are~ The festival after-party is already starting, you know?
Oh...
What's wrong? You're totally spacing out.
Nah...
Just thinking how fun that live was.
Huh~? I didn't know you got like this too, Kanata.
What, that a problem?
No, not at all. I had a ton of fun at today's live too.
My second-year middle school self would never believe it. Like, "You'll be playing in a band on the school festival stage one day!"
I think... my heart's still racing a little.
Still, that was the whole youth thing, right?
Yeah... Almost enough to make me laugh.
At first... there was something I wanted to do. That's why I started this band.
Wait, what? Are we getting a passionate speech?
Yup. So shut up and listen.
A mark I left behind, I guess.
Proof that I was really here in this world. Something that could only exist because I lived this life.
I thought it'd be nice to have something like that. Y'know, proof I existed?
Kanata...?
Ahaha! I mean, you know I used to be a sickly, fragile beauty, right?
So yeah, I tended to think about stuff like that.
Since when were you fragile?
Harsh.
Anyway. I wanted that, so I asked you guys to start a band with me.
Then Natsume and Houka joined, and there were five of us... Haha. Damn, all I can think of are the dumbest memories.
Like... the metronome incident?
Oh yeah, that one. We could not come in together on the chorus for anything, so we tried playing along to a click, but...
We listened to it so much, and I could still hear the click in my head when I went to bed... Then I overslept the next day. Ahaha.
And that time, Nagi hit the distortion pedal for the first time with the knobs all over the place and made that toy-like sound. I laughed like crazy.
Nagi-chan was panicking for once. Like, "I don't know how to fix it!"
Then~ Y'know, our first live! Natsume stepped off the riser and wiped out mid-show.
It was amazing how she still protected her guitar on instinct, wasn't it?
Seriously, how did she not get hurt~?
Oh, I remember when we all escorted Houka-chan too. The one where our arms got so sore we couldn't lift them afterward.
Somewhere along the way, it turned into this whole noble lady with four butlers thing. Like, "Allow me to carry your luggage."
Ahaha. What even was that?
Haha, yeah... Anyway, y'know, we just kept piling up memories like that.
Then, at that practice camp the other day, I realized something.
I was like, oh... this was it.
This...?
Yep. I kept lining up all these cool-sounding reasons, like leaving a mark and proving I existed, but...
In the end, I just wanted to live out my youth.
...!
The story of our youth, with us as the main characters.
I think... I kind of get that.
When our live ended earlier, it felt like the last chapter of a manga or something!
Huh? Who was it backstage saying, "It feels like my life is about to start!"?
That's how it felt then! But now it feels like the credits are rolling on the perfect ending.
Haha, what the heck does that mean?
Anyway, y'know. I'm stupidly happy right now. I'm even grateful to this world.
Enough that I wanna grab every random person walking by and go around kissing them all.
Huh?! K-Kiss?! W-W-W-What are you saying, Kanata!?
You're freaking out way too hard. What are you, an elementary school girl? I'm just saying that's how happy I am.
So instead, I'm gonna make music.
I'm going to deliver it to everyone through sound. A happy gift from us to the world.
Oh... So, that's why we're "millsage"...? The French word for "thousand," and...
Corsage, a flower for celebration. millsage.
It's happiness I wanna share, more than we could ever hold in both hands.
Hey, Mahoro. Truth is, I...
Huh...?
...!!
...
That happiness... was mine too...
It really was... and yet...
I'm sorry, Kanata.
7. Episode 7: With my music
101 linesPlease, choose anything that catches your eye♪
Y-yes...
Shiomi-san...? Your menu is upside down~
What...? Ah! I-I'm so sorry...!
Hehe. There is no need to be so tense. Plenty of students come here as well.
O-oh, I see...
Actually, um... this is my first time going somewhere with someone outside my family...!
My, then I am truly honored♪
If you are comfortable with it, Shiomi-san, shall we order a few things to share?
May I...!?
Of course♪
I do have rather discerning tastes, and this Café is especially renowned for its pancakes.
Pancakes...!
Hehe. Then let us place our order first.
Now then... shall we turn to the subject that brought us here today?
About millsage... you said you hoped to help us somehow...
Y-yes...!
What exactly did you have in mind?
Um... After I went home yesterday, I thought about what I might be able to do...
Like... if you ever needed me for an important rehearsal or live show, I could play piano...
and maybe that would bring your sound a little closer... to how it was when there were five of you...
I see. So you would be helping us as a support member.
Support...?
A support member is not a formal member of the band, but someone who joins in when needed to help with performances.
Yes...! I think that's exactly what I meant!
That is a very generous offer. Truly.
If there were any way for us to avoid disbanding, I wanted to find it as well.
I'm so relieved...!
However... I am afraid that alone would not be enough to change where we stand.
Huh...?
Allow me to explain where millsage stands at the moment.
The main reason was the departure of Kanata-san and Natsume-san... Natsume-san was our lead guitarist. Losing both of them had a major impact.
As a result, music that was once performed by five people is now being carried by three.
We have managed to cover the guitar and piano parts with programmed tracks, but...
The vocals, however, are different. Someone still needs to take on that role.
That was when Mahoro-san volunteered to sing.
Nagi-san said singing was not her strength, and in my case... handling vocals while drumming would not be realistic.
Even if it was by process of elimination, Mahoro-san was the only real option.
But... millsage's songs were written around Kanata-san's voice.
To be frank, Kanata-san was in a class of her own, both in her piano playing and her vocal performance.
Mahoro-san is giving it everything she has, but she also began learning bass with no prior experience...
Between the thinner sound I mentioned earlier and the absence of Kanata-san's presence, the audience has judged us rather severely.
...!
(That must be why yesterday's audience felt so distant...)
And... there is another difficulty.
With Natsume-san, who composed our songs, gone as well, work on new music has come to a halt.
Of course, it would be possible for us to continue performing lives with only the songs we already have, but...
In other words, that would amount to little more than maintaining the status quo. We would not be moving forward, merely standing still.
If we were to continue under such circumstances, we would only wear ourselves down little by little.
...
(So... just playing piano would not be enough.)
(Mahoro-san's burden, the new songs... We would have to solve both of those problems...)
...
Please don't worry. There is indeed a way.
We simply need to have Natsume-san come back to us♪
Huh...?
With Natsume-san back with us, we would be able to resume work on new songs.
And as for Mahoro-san, we could ease her burden as well by having Natsume-san adjust the bass part accordingly.
That's true...!
Wait... But if that is the case, wouldn't that mean you don't need me...?
No, that is not the case at all. The piano remains an essential part of this band, and that has not changed.
Besides, Shiomi-san, there is a task of the utmost importance that I would like to entrust to you: persuading Natsume-san.
M-Me? You want me to persuade her!?
Yes. You, Shiomi-san♪
But Natsume-san... stopped even coming to practice, didn't she...?
If you were to join us as a support member, Shiomi-san, that would change matters entirely. I am certain she would agree to sit down and speak with us.
B-but would she really listen to someone like me, when we have never even met...?
There is no need for concern. I have every confidence that you can do it.
You are the "Angel of the Music World," after all.
!
I understand you were held in exceptionally high regard in the classical music world, Shiomi-san.
Forgive my presumption, but I took the liberty of watching the video of your street piano performance.
It was so... truly beautiful♡
U-um...
With your music, I truly believe we can make it a reality.
"A future where everyone can be happy."
With... my music...?
But y'know, "music that makes everyone happy..."
If anyone can make that happen, it's you, Hotaru!
...
(I still don't know what I can do... or whether I can really do it properly...)
(But if it would help everyone...)
(then I want to try believing in Houka-san.)
All right... I'll give it a try!
My, thank you very much♪
Let us strive together, shall we?
...
(I haven't touched my guitar at all lately.)
(Every time I so much as touch music, my chest starts to hurt.)
(Maybe I should just... leave things as they are.)
...? From Houka?
Hey, hope you're doing well.
We had a rather unusual guest at our live the other day.
Hotaru Shiomi-san.
The girl Kanata-san mentioned before, if I recall correctly.
Apparently she's really good at piano🎹
...?
What is this supposed to be? Some kind of report? This has nothing to do with me...
I don't get it. Whatever. I'm ignoring this...
I am thinking of having Shiomi-san join millsage.
What...?
8. Episode 8: A wish to fulfill
124 lines...
...
(The tension in the air is so heavy...)
(But I already made up my mind.)
U-Um... I...!
Houka. Can you say that again?
Certainly♪ What would you all say to having Shiomi-san join the band?
Um... What do you mean...?
Exactly as I said. Shiomi-san would play piano for us as a support member.
Sorry... I'm not following. What is her playing piano supposed to change?
Even if you add piano, Mahoro's burden isn't going anywhere, is it?
It would give us a way to keep millsage from disbanding.
Don't toss that out like it's nothing.
Besides, you're the one who said it, Houka. You said it would be better to end things as we are.
Until a few days ago, I believed that was our only choice as well.
But... if there is even a chance we might not have to, would it not be worth considering?
That... is...
Houka-chan, so this chance you mentioned... the one that means we might not have to disband... is Hotaru-chan?
Mahoro...!
millsage... was the band Kanata started.
If we disband, we won't gather here together anymore, and we won't get to play our songs anymore...
It's the last memory we have left of her...
...!
But... think about it. Piano was Kanata's part, you know? Are we really okay with that?
Even professional bands, at times, undergo lineup changes under deeply unfortunate circumstances.
Such decisions often divide opinion among fans... but I believe the members who remain make that choice so they may carry the band onward.
So long as the songs continue to be performed... so long as the band itself endures, the original members' presence remains within it.
Perhaps it is a declaration of resolve, a way of saying, "We will not forget."
...
Besides... Shiomi-san is Kanata-san's apprentice. I cannot imagine she would ever dishonor what Kanata-san left behind.
Y-yes! Of course I wouldn't...!
To begin with, this support arrangement was proposed by Shiomi-san herself.
Huh...? Hotaru-chan did?
I was the one who brought it up... I asked if there was anything at all I could do.
I'm sure all of you have talked this over again and again.
I know very well that it isn't my place, as an outsider, to say anything...
But...! Kanata-san told me she wanted all of you "to be happy."
...!
If that was Kanata-san's wish... then I want to make it come true!
I hope Kanata-san can smile... and that all of you can, too!
I think... there's no way Kanata-san would have wanted an ending like the band disbanding...!
I...
Hah... What a beautiful little fantasy.
Natsume-chan...!
(So this is Natsume-san...!)
I have been expecting you. Please, this way.
Don't give me that "expecting you" act...! Why are you trying to decide the band's future without me?!
What are you thinking, Houka?!
What else would I be thinking of? The survival of the band, naturally.
The survival of the band? Don't make me laugh!
Mahoro, Nagi, use your heads and think this through!
The second that girl joins, it becomes something else. It won't be the band you're trying so hard to keep from disbanding anymore.
By that reasoning, millsage would already no longer be millsage as things stand...
Exactly! That's what I've been saying! Without Kanata, it isn't millsage!
There's no point playing in a band like that!
...
(I understand how Natsume-san feels. I really do.)
(But still...)
(Natsume-san looks so sad, too. So...)
U-um...!
What...?
N-nice to meet you. My name is Hotaru Shiomi!
Huh...?
I'm truly... truly sorry for bringing all this up and confusing everyone.
But, please... Could you at least consider keeping the band going...?
I... I want everyone who loved Kanata-san to be happy.
And that includes you too, Natsume-san...!
What...?
You must have been hurt... and sad... and it must have been so painful.
But... if the band is gone, I think you'll regret it someday...!
What is with that girl...? She doesn't know a thing, but she keeps talking like she understands...!
"I want you to be happy?!" Don't decide I'm unhappy for me.
I decide what makes me happy.
You're just playing savior to someone you decided was pitiful so you can feel good about yourself!
...!
Natsume-chan, that is...
My, that was rather harsh.
...
(My legs are shaking. I can't even look up...)
(Having anger thrown straight at me like this... really is scary.)
(Natsume-san is right.)
(Saying I want to make everyone happy... sounds so stupid.)
(But...!)
It's my... assignment.
...?
It's something... I have to do.
My promise to Kanata-san...!
Please tell me, Natsume-san.
Huh...?
What do I have to do for you to accept me? What do I have to do to prove that I'm serious?!
H-huh?! Like I said, that's just your own problem...
Why not settle this with a battle?
!?
A battle...?
Yes. Natsume-san will improvise on guitar, and Shiomi-san will answer it with her own arrangement.
In other words, you could call it... "Let's do a jam session!"♪
That's... what Natsume-senpai and Kanata used to do...!
Houka! You just had to stick your nose in again...!
Because it would settle things much faster, wouldn't it?
Natsume-san has her reservations about Shiomi-san, while Shiomi-san wishes to earn Natsume-san's respect.
In that case, there is only one way to settle this: a battle of skill♪ Wouldn't you agree? If you don't like having her here, then beat her with your own playing and send her back.
Hah. Like that little runt could ever keep up with me.
Hmm, is that so...? What do you say, Shiomi-san?
I... I'll do it. Please let me try!
If that is what it takes for Natsume-san to accept me...! If that is what it takes for all of you to accept me.
...
Because... I am Kanata-san's apprentice.
Fine. Come at me, then. I'll wipe the floor with you!
Then let us begin at once♪ You two have no objections, I trust?
Yeah...
If Mahoro is okay with it...
As for the piano... Let us have you use Kanata-san's. This way.
I got it...
(This is... the piano Kanata-san used to play.)
(It's covered in dust... It hasn't been used in so long...)
(Please... Let me play on it.)
...?
(Wait... Down by the pedals. Something fell...)
(A Nikopan-chan... keychain...?)
(Could this be... Kanata-san's...?)
Come on, let's get started already!
R-right! I'll get ready right away!
(Sorry. It might be a little cramped in there, please stay in my pocket for now, okay?)
Thank you for waiting. Please... let's begin!
9. Episode 9: With all my might
120 linesHow old are you?
Huh...? Oh, I'm fourteen.
Hmph? Well, I'm sixteen.
...?
All right, kid. Let's see you keep up!
Y-Yes!
!
(Whoa... What a complicated phrase...!)
(Just keeping the rhythm straight is taking everything I've got...!)
...? Wait, this... I feel like I've heard it somewhere before...
I believe that is a phrase... from the new song Natsume-san was working on with Kanata-san.
It was left unfinished partway through.
Then... that's not really improvising, is it?
...
Come on, then! Let's see what Kanata's apprentice can do!
...!
(Take what she just played, arrange it, and answer back...!)
(I can sort of tell what notes she's using, but...)
(This is nothing like playing with Kanata-san...!)
(I have to hang on with everything I've got...!)
Why is Hotaru-chan always the one who wins gold?! I'm trying just as hard!!
...
(Everything I've got...? Really?)
Then go take an advanced course or something. Piano isn't fun with you here, Hotaru-chan!
(If I play with everything I have, and that same rainbow-colored light from back then...)
(If something bad that hurts people comes out again...)
(I can't let that happen...!)
Amazing... She's keeping up with Natsume-chan...!
That girl really is good.
However, merely keeping up will not be enough...
Are you messing with me...?!
...!
No fills, no arrangement, not one interesting idea!
Forget it. I'll end this on the next one...!
(I need Natsume-san... to accept me...)
(But my memories from back then keep getting in the way...)
(I keep trying not to let that color out. The one that hurts people.)
(My fingers pull away from it on their own.)
(Kanata-san told me the same thing before... and I still...!)
All right, stop. Back to the top.
What?! I played it properly, didn't I?!
Yeah, you played it properly. Your rhythm was spot-on, every note was clean and even. That's all!
There's nooothing interesting about it at all!
Y-you don't have to put it like that!
No, Hotaru... I don't feel any "soul" in your playing!
S-soul...?
Yes! Soul, as in spirit!
You can play exactly by the book, but past that, there's nothing there.
That prim and proper piano of yours isn't gonna make the audience happy, y'know? You've gotta throw everything you've got into it!
With everything... I've got...?
Yeah, everything you've got. I dunno what you're so scared of, Hotaru... but pretty sure you've got the wrong idea, y'know.
The audience isn't your enemy. And obviously, neither am I.
They're on your side, here to have fun with you.
Believe in your friends and play your heart out!
(People on my side... here to have fun with me...)
(That's right... Natsume-san can play guitar like this. She's incredible.)
(Believe in them... trust Natsume-san, and do it with all my might...!)
!?
My...♡
Did she just... change all of a sudden?
Yeah... Hotaru-chan is starting to fight back.
(Something strong enough... for Natsume-san to accept me...!)
...!
Hey... isn't this...
Yes... before we knew it, the lead melody had shifted from guitar to piano.
It's the same...
(A scene I've watched here over and over, dozens of times.)
(Kanata and Natsume-chan making songs by clashing through music.)
(Hotaru-chan really is something...)
(She walked into a band full of older girls she barely knew...)
(And even when she's challenged to prove herself, she digs in and keeps up...)
(All for Kanata's treasure...)
(You really cared about Kanata that much... I understand...)
There we are. That will do♪
!!
Natsume-san. I do believe the outcome is clear, is it not?
...
*Pant*... How... did I do...?
(When was the last time I gave it that much...?)
(But... I didn't see that rainbow-colored light...?)
...Hmph. Fine. I get it. You can play decently enough.
! Then...!
But listen! That was just the opening round, the opening round! I haven't played guitar in forever, so the real thing's a whole different story!
Huh...?
Ugh. Here we go. This is the annoying part.
Ugh, enough already! And you guys are just as bad! Dragging me into some weird jam session out of nowhere!
Got it?! I haven't lost! Next time, it won't be anything like this!!
Ah?! Wait, please... Natsume-san!
(So I really did... hurt Natsume-san...?!)
There is no need to chase after her.
What!? But...
Natsume-san did say "next time," after all.
Huh...?
Natsume-san... absolutely cannot stand losing.
In terms of the result, that's basically a pass.
Um... is that so?
Either way, she'll be fine.
B-but...
As for me... honestly, I'm still torn.
!
I still don't really know you yet, Hotaru-chan...
And honestly... part of me still feels the way Natsume-chan does. That was Kanata's part.
But... I could feel how serious you are, Hotaru-chan. How desperately you want to keep millsage from falling apart.
I feel the same way... so please, lend us your strength.
Yes...!
U-um, Nagi-san...
I'm just going along with Mahoro's decision. So... yeah. Guess we're working together?
Th-thank you so much!
Hehe. With Nagi-san's approval secured as well, that leaves only Natsume-san.
Ugh, seriously!!
I didn't lose...
I didn't lose, I didn't lose, I didn't lose!
What is her deal?! What is her deal?!
I was the one who spent over a year playing with Kanata!
(I let that girl's momentum push me back, and for a second, I thought... I might not win...)
(So I ran away again.)
So lame...
I won't accept this...
The only one who gets to stand beside me... is Kanata.
Hotaru? Firefly? Dragonfly? I don't care what bug she is. I will never accept her!
10. Episode 10: Overlap
156 lines...
(Nagi-san and the others told me not to worry, but...)
(I still feel like I might have hurt Natsume-san...)
Hey, isn't that a Minase uniform?
Is she staring daggers over here?
I think she's looking for someone.
...?
(Something seems to be going on over there...)
There you are, kid!!
!?
N-Natsume-san? What are you doing here...?
What do you think? I'm here to pick up where we left off yesterday.
Where we left off...?
What? You think you've already won? Hah. How cute.
I told you, yesterday was just the opening round. A test run, nothing more than a warm-up.
That was nowhere near my real level!
Come on, we're going to the garage. Move it!
Sure, you play pretty well for someone younger, I guess. But don't get cocky.
I brought a phrase way harder than yesterday's!
You're... going to do another session with me?
Huh? Obviously.
(Natsume-san... She's going to have another session with me...!)
Why are you grinning like that...? Creepy.
Ah, I'm sorry! I was just so happy...!
Happy? Sounds like you're pretty relaxed. Today's gonna be nothing like yesterday!
Yes! Thank you for doing this with me again today!
So... why are you here?
Well... I figured this was probably where things were headed...
What's that supposed to mean?
Uh, well... Right, a witness! You'll need someone to confirm it when you win, won't you, Natsume-chan?
Fine... whatever. Just sit there and watch.
Hotaru-chan...
?
I don't think Natsume-chan is going to accept you that easily...
But if it's you, Hotaru-chan, I think you'll be okay. You've got this.
Y-yes!
Hey, you two! What are you whispering about?
Hmm? Nothing?
Hmph... Fine. Advise her all you want. There's no way she can beat me when I'm serious.
Better start thinking up your excuse for losing right now!
...!
How was that...? Did I... do it well?
Today was just...! My fingers weren't cooperating, that's all!
That's all it was!!
What...!? Um, Natsume-san...!
I think that means, "See you tomorrow."
Umm...
Ahaha. Don't look so crushed.
It's funny. The moment you sit at a piano, Hotaru-chan, you turn into this amazing pianist.
See you tomorrow. Show Natsume-chan and me that amazing playing of yours again.
! Y-yes! See you tomorrow!
Today, I'm not holding back! Got it!?
Yes! I'm all ready too!
Good luck, you two~
...!
How was that...?
Natsume-chan, maybe it's time to...
My stomach!
!?
My stomach was hurting! So this one doesn't count!!
Hmm, I see. Then I guess there's no helping it.
Hotaru-chan, looks like she wants another round.
P-please!
Ugh, fine! Let's do this already!
(Why... Why can't I win?!)
(Why can she match everything I do? Why can she arrange every single thing I throw at her?!)
(This is driving me crazy... driving me crazy...!)
(This is... This is just like...!)
Phew...!
Ummm...
Does that mean... Kanata won?
...!
After acting so confident, too...
Nagi-chan! Sugarcoat it a little!
...
Natsume-chan's crying again~
She's always behind in class and dead last when we race.
So lame~!
(I haven't... changed at all.)
(Even after finally finding my place with guitar, I'm still just as lame.)
(Everyone's going to laugh at me again...)
That was soooo freakin' cool!!
Huh...?
Whoa, whoa, a guitar can do stuff like that?! No fair! I wanna do that on piano too!
Huh...?
Also, you're seriously amazing! I was playing all over the place and you still kept up!
You must've practiced like crazy!
Uh... yeah...
Hey, Natsume. You really should join our band!
Then let's make some cool music together!
(It stings to admit it, but she does remind me of Kanata.)
(No matter how hard a phrase I throw at her, no matter how much I change its direction...)
(She charges after it like it's the most fun thing in the world. A total music-obsessed idiot.)
(Their personalities couldn't be more different, though...)
(But with her... she might actually be able to play Kanata's part.)
...
Natsume-san...
(Ugh... I'm pathetic.)
(If Kanata could see me now, she'd probably laugh.)
(Sorry, Kanata...)
(I failed to protect millsage...)
*Sniff*...
Natsume-chan...
I lost...
!
Fine. Be the new pianist or whatever. Do what you want.
Natsume-san...!
Then I'll leave instead. There, problem solved.
!?
Natsume-chan, wait! Hold on!
No. I told you already. If this girl joins, then to me, that isn't millsage anymore.
So this is where I...
No, you can't!
!?
You can't do that! I want you here too, Natsume-san!
If you aren't here, it won't be millsage either...! I wouldn't be able to face Kanata-san!
Huh...? I'm done. I can't deal with this anymore. I'm going home.
Ah...! Wait, please! Natsume-sa... oof?!
Hotaru-chan?! Are you okay?!
Uuu...
O-oh, that looked painful... You landed face-first...
We had so many sessions together...
?
I've listened to you play so many times, Natsume-san. I've seen the way you look when you're playing, over and over...!
I could feel how much millsage means to you! All of it came through!!
...!
Then you really can't leave!
If you leave too, Natsume-san... millsage really will be gone!
Kanata-san is right there in the music! As long as we keep the band going, we'll be together!
(That's right...)
(When I first met Kanata, it was like this too.)
(She didn't care what I had to say. She just grabbed my hand and dragged me along...)
I'll... I'll work even harder...!
I know I can never be Kanata-san... but I'll work hard enough to play her part!
W-wait, what?! Why are you crying?! Hey, quit it! Don't grab my sleeve!
Ngh... Natsume-saaaan... Please don't go...
Hey! I said let go!
Wow... She's got serious guts...
My, my. What have we here?
Natsume-senpai... did you make a junior high girl cry...?
Why are you all here?!
I called them over.
Mahorooo!!
*Sniff*... Natsume-saaaan...
Ngh... This girl...!
Natsume-chan... I'm asking too. Could you try staying with us for just a little longer?
Can you hold off on making your decision, just a little longer?
What am I supposed to do... when you say stuff like that...?!
Please...!
Ugh... fine...! I get it, okay?!
!
But, I'm putting my answer on hold too!
...?
All you've passed today is the first round! I'm gonna keep testing what you're made of from here on out!
So you'd better be ready... Hotaru!
! Yes!
11. Episode 11: Potential
123 linesL-let me introduce myself properly...!
Starting today, I'll be working with millsage. My name is Hotaru Shiomi! And I'll be playing piano!
I'll give it everything I've got, so... I'm looking forward to playing with you all!
Glad to have you. Looking forward to it.
Yaaay~♪ Clap, clap~
So... why are we at a Café? Aren't we practicing?
Now, now. It is a welcome party, after all. Surely there is no harm in that.
Here you are, Hotaru-san. Please have a look at the menu.
Thank you!
Wait... were you already calling Shiomi-san by her first name?
Well. Support member or not, we will be in the same band together now.
Doesn't it feel warmer that way? Wouldn't you agree, Hotaru-san? ♡
Yes! Please call me whatever you like!
Now, down to business. If I'm coming back, then I'm not going easy on band stuff either.
We've gotta write new songs too... Hotaru!
Y-Yes!
I'm expecting you to pull your weight too. Got it?
As soon as I've got a demo, I'll send it straight to you, middle of the night or not. You listen to it and arrange it.
Arrange it...?
Right.
That's what Kanata used to do, right?
If you're gonna call yourself Kanata's apprentice, then you're doing what she did.
That's what an apprentice is supposed to do, right?
Talk about old-fashioned.
You said something?
Nope.
Hey, you two should stop it now, okay?
Hehe, you two get along well♪
I-I'll do my best!
(I'm so glad... Natsume-san actually decided to come back to the band.)
(When they told me to convince her and settle things through music, I had no idea what I was supposed to do...)
(But... those sessions were actually kind of fun.)
(We clashed with everything we had... and still, I didn't see any rainbow colors...)
(Maybe... I could only see them when I was a child...?)
(No, I can't assume that. I still don't know why I see those rainbow colors, so I have to keep being careful...!)
This almost doesn't feel real.
Just the other day, it was only the three of us playing live, barely holding it together... and talking about disbanding...
...
And now here we are, all together again... talking about the band... It's all because of you, Hotaru-chan.
N-no, not at all...! I'll work even harder so I can help more!
Yeah... I'll do my best too.
Yes♪ Let us all move forward together once more.
This really is... our last chance...
?
In any case, that settles one problem♪ Which leaves...
...
Huh? What, is something up with Mahoro?
About Mahoro's part... could you make it a little easier?
Now that she's doubling as a vocalist, that part's a little much to play while singing...
Um! Could we maybe talk about that later?
Huh? Yeah, sure.
Mahoro...?
Come on, this is Hotaru-chan's welcome party! Heavy band talk isn't exactly fun, you know~?
You think...?
Um, if that's the case, please don't worry about me! It's important to millsage, right?
It is, but... Oh! Why don't you ask us something instead, Hotaru-chan?
S-something I want to ask...? Oh!
It's about this keychain... I found it by the piano in the garage.
...! This was Kanata's.
She was quite fond of Nikopan-chan, wasn't she?
So it really was hers... I'm sorry I held on to it for so long. Here, I'll give it back.
No, thank you for finding it. I thought we'd returned all of Kanata's things back then...
...
I'll make sure it gets back to Kanata's family.
Yes... Please do.
Sorry, my phone's ringing. I'll step out for a moment.
I'm getting water. Hotaru, you're coming with me.
Huh? Oh, yes!
Wow. Putting her to work already?
I can't carry water for five people by myself, can I?!
I'll help!
Hehe. Hotaru-san and Natsume-san may turn out to be a surprisingly good pair.
Maybe...
Hey, Houka... what are you after?
Hm? Whatever do you mean?
Don't play dumb. I know your motivation for the band dropped after what happened with Kanata.
And I remember you were the one who first brought up disbanding. But ever since Shiomi-san showed up, you're suddenly all fired up.
So... what are you planning?
My, what a dreadful way to put it.
I merely saw a possibility.
The possibility of bringing the band back? Or something else?
Really, you are terribly suspicious.
I did not want millsage to disband, so I took action with Shiomi-san's help. That is all.
You do keep a very close eye on things, Nagi-san. I understand why you end up thinking more than most, but...
If you think so much that you only keep standing still, does that not become terribly dull?
...
Hey, first-years. Don't show off how badly you get along in front of the new girl.
My, badly? Not at all.
We're just messing around. That's all.
Sure you are.
I brought the water! Nagi-san, Houka-san, here you go!
My, thank you very much♡
Thanks...
*Sigh*...
E-everyone!!
? What's wrong? You're in a hurry.
A live show! We got an offer to play a live show!
A live house we played at ages ago asked if we wanted to join a band battle show a month from now!
Huh? Why all of a sudden?
Well... until pretty recently, I was thinking about where we should hold our final live. So I'd been contacting a bunch of live houses.
They reached out to say they had an open slot, and when I told them what's going on with millsage now, they suggested this.
If it is a month from now, I imagine we could make it work, couldn't we?
Right?! They went out of their way to invite us, and the timing couldn't be better!
This is our chance! We have to take it!
Hold on. Just because Hotaru can play doesn't mean we've even rehearsed as a band yet, you know?
Playing together is a whole different thing.
I-I know that, but...
Mahoro... are you rushing this?
N-no, I'm not...
It's happiness I wanna share, more than we could ever hold in both hands.
Hey, Mahoro. Truth is, I...
Huh...?
No, really. I'm not.
I just thought... it might help if we had something soon to aim for.
And I think it's a step millsage has to take someday if we're going to move forward... so maybe it's worth trying.
I mean... that's true.
Everything is experience, after all. I do think it may be worth trying. What do you think, Hotaru-san?
A live...
(My first live house stage... nothing like the competitions I'm used to.)
(I'd be lying... if I said I wasn't nervous, but...)
I... I'll do it.
(If it's for millsage...!)
I want to play that live!
12. Episode 12: A gift from God
169 lines...
Natsume-senpai, can I borrow your tuner?
Didn't you have a clip-on tuner...?
I forgot it.
Seriously? What kind of guitarist forgets their tuner?
And mine's a tuner pedal, so no. It's already wired into my board.
Fine. I'll use Mahoro's, then. Mahoro.
W-wait, I'm using mine too!
(Ugh... Our first real rehearsal is about to start... My heart won't stop pounding...!)
Are you nervous?
Eek?! H-Houka-san...!
Hehe. It is only practice. You needn't brace yourself quite so hard.
R-R-R-Right...!
(I memorized every song we're practicing today, just in case, but...)
(This is nothing like classical accompaniment... There's no way I wouldn't be nervous...!)
Is this really the right place for me to stand...? Am I in anyone's way...?
You're fine right there! Relax, Hotaru-chan. Deep breaths!
We're still easing back into things too. Let's all take it little by little!
We'll practice hard, then have snack time! What kind of snacks do you like, Hotaru-chan?
Huh? Um... I like egg boro cookies.
E-egg boro cookies?! Do we have any of those...?
Then let us take this at our own pace.
Y-Yes! At our own pace!
Nagi, are you done tuning?
All set.
Hotaru, you too. You're ready, right?
Ah... I'll give this everything I've got! Thank you for having me!
...
Ngh... I-I'm sorry...!
You're stiff as a board. Nothing like last time.
Mm, ahaha... Hard to believe you're the same person who went toe-to-toe with Natsume-chan.
Your technique itself is not the issue. And yet... somehow, the sound refuses to come together.
N-Next time, I'll listen more closely to everyone's sound...!
(I-I have to get this right! I'm a support player, so I have to support them properly...!)
(And I can't let my guard down. Not for a second. If I see those rainbow colors again, like when I was little...)
...!
See? I told you. If rehearsal sounds like this, a live is still asking too much.
!
(At this rate, I'll ruin the live...!)
(But Mahoro-san said she wanted to play it...!)
One more time! Please... please let me try one more time!
I don't mind, but... Mahoro?
Hmm...
All right, break time!
What!?
Hotaru-chan, come take a walk with me!
Wh-What?
Mmm~ What a nice breeze. The beach may be artificial, but it's still pretty, isn't it?
Ah, yes...
Um... Was it really okay? Stopping practice like that...
It's fine, it's fine. We needed to pick up some egg boro cookies anyway!
But...
(They're spending precious practice time on me...)
...
Hotaru-chan, you used to play with Kanata, right?
Huh...? Yes.
What was it like? Was it fun?
Um... I'm not sure if... "fun" is the right word.
I wanted to make music like Kanata-san's, but most of the time, all I could think was how far I still had to go.
What kind of music do you mean, like Kanata's?
Music that can make everyone happy...
After Kanata-san played, everyone in the audience would be smiling. They all looked so happy.
Hmm~ I see, I see.
At first, I thought you were just nervous. But you looked like you could barely breathe the whole time.
Then I remembered Kanata once saying you looked like playing was hurting you somehow, Hotaru-chan.
...! Did I look like I was in pain?
Well... sort of? In a faint, hard-to-explain way?
I'm sorry...
No, no, that's not something you need to apologize for. I didn't know what it was, but I figured there had to be a reason.
...
(The reason I can't face music head-on.)
(A bitter memory I never told my mother... or anyone.)
(I always thought I'd tell Kanata-san someday, but...)
When I was little... I used to see rainbow colors.
Rainbow colors...
When I played well, my mother and my teachers would smile... and then everything in front of me would start sparkling.
The notes would burst open, and it felt like the whole world was shining.
I loved that sight.
When I saw those rainbow colors, I could play well... and I won gold again and again.
But... because of that, I ended up hurting the other kids who were learning piano with me.
So I tried not to see those colors ever again...
...
If my piano... ever makes someone sad...
I think that's what I've been afraid of all this time.
I see... Thank you for telling me.
Yeah... I see... I see...
...?
I... I'm no good at this! I tried acting like a big sister and asking, but I can't give you any advice at all!
I'm sorry, Hotaru-chaaan...!
N-no, not at all! Just having you listen is enough!
Thank you... You're so kind... Rainbow colors... rainbow colors, huh?
That kind of sounds like the "zone" athletes talk about, doesn't it?
I don't really understand it myself... Just that I see it sometimes.
Hmm... Is it really such a bad thing, though?
Huh...?
I mean, I don't actually know what those rainbow colors are like, but...
If something feels that beautiful to you, it seems like such a waste to shut it away.
I don't have any special skill I can brag about, let alone anything like talent, so...
It sounds almost like a gift from god. I might even be a little jealous.
...
Besides! If we're talking about wild performances, Kanata already gave us plenty of practice!
In both good and bad ways, I mean.
Hehe...
In a band, maybe it won't bother anyone as much as you think.
In a band...
Exactly! If one of your members can play something amazing, that's only ever a plus!
...!
(I never thought of it that way.)
(That the rainbow colors might actually help someone...)
(If that's really true... then I...)
Oh, it's from Nagi-chan. "Are you about done with your walk?" ...she says.
Ahaha, maybe we wandered a little too far. Let's head back.
Yes!
♪
...!
(I'm starting to get used to band practice, even if it's just a little...!)
(This is a kind of music unlike competitions or accompaniment.)
(Every sound has its own personality.)
(Houka-san's drum...)
(Her form is beautiful, and her rhythm is always so precise... but every now and then, I can see something burning underneath.)
(Nagi-san's guitar...)
(She holds back one step, then slips right into whatever space needs filling.)
(Natsume-san's guitar...)
(Cool, always at full power. Like it's shouting, "Look at me!")
(Mahoro-san's bass and voice...)
(Unadorned music, honest and direct.)
(Balancing both still looks really hard, but... Mahoro-san is working so hard.)
...
(What Kanata-san told me back then...)
(When she called it a treasure.)
(I think... I'm starting to understand it, just a little.)
(Not playing alone, but taking someone's hand...)
(And playing toward the same place.)
(This... feels so nice.)
...♪
!!
(Wait... just now...?!)
(There's no mistaking it... This view... It's the rainbow colors...!)
(I haven't seen them for years... So why now...?!)
Hotaru...!
! O-Okay!
(What do I do? What if this becomes like back then again...)
See? You can do it!
Huh...?
Play like that from the start! You're finally starting to sound like yourself!
Senpai, how about praising her normally? Like, "That was good."
Wait...?
Was that... good...?
Yes. It was truly splendid♡
It was really good.
And, Hotaru-san. Did you notice that? Just now, you...
Huh?
Nothing... never mind. It really was wonderful. Wasn't it, Mahoro-san?
...
Mahoro?
Huh...? Oh. Yeah!
That sounded amazing! Let's keep that going, okay?
...! Yes!
(Thank goodness...!)
(Maybe Mahoro-san was right after all!)
(If we're a band, being different colors can still be okay!)
I see... So it's okay.
All right, let's do that again before you forget how it felt!
We've already been going for an hour straight.
My, how Spartan.
Enough, first-years! Just get in position! Hotaru, you too!
Y-Yes!
...
Hotaru-chan really is amazing...
13. Episode 13: Beyond the sky
141 linesStaying late to practice?
I'll drop the key in your mailbox later, okay, Nagi-chan?
I mean, you can use the place, but... why?
? I wonder what's going on with those two...
My. It seems that old habit of hers has shown itself again.
Old habit?
...Let us just say Mahoro-san is what one might call a "hard worker."♪
A-ahaha~ well... I figured I should be doing more too!
See? Hotaru-chan is settling in little by little, and we're starting to sound pretty good, right?
Then once I get the vocals down, that solves everything, right?
I guess, but... wait. What happened with the bass part?
Weren't you going to ask Natsume-senpai to make it easier?
Ah... about that...
She turned me down. Said she wants to play it as-is.
Wait... what? Why?
How should I know? You should ask her yourself.
Mahoro...?
...Please! Just let me try one more time.
Thanks to Hotaru-chan, we don't have to disband anymore. We finally have a chance to make music like we used to.
If we're really going to keep this band going... and for whatever comes next, I don't think we should compromise here.
Mahoro-san...
Whatever comes next...? It's not like we're trying to go pro or anything.
R-right, I know that, but...
No harm in trying, right? If it really starts looking impossible, we can rethink it then.
Though I'm not sure you can handle that on top of writing lyrics.
Wait, wait. You're writing the lyrics too, Mahoro? That's even more work than before.
You didn't tell them that either?
Huh...? Then your burden hasn't gotten lighter, Mahoro-san?
Ahaha... But it's fine! If everything I've done so far still isn't enough, I'll just work even harder!
I still haven't given it everything I have. So I have to push harder.
...!
*Sigh*...
I'm staying too.
Aww, you really are such a worrywart~
You hid this from us, Mahoro. You don't get to complain.
Ngh...
I-I can help with something too!
Nope. You, kiddo, are going home. You don't live close enough to walk here like I do.
Kiddo...
I am afraid if I stayed late now, I would be cutting it rather close to curfew... My apologies.
Aww, come on, everyone. You don't have to worry about me! Thanks for today. See you!
All right... I'll be going, then.
...
(I hope Mahoro-san is okay...)
Are you worried about Mahoro-san?
Mahoro-san... said she wants to keep trying, but...
Her burden hasn't gotten any lighter, and now she's writing lyrics too... On top of that, she's been looking after me so much.
But I can't just ignore how badly Mahoro-san wants to keep trying...
I keep wondering if there's something more I can do.
...
There is♡
Huh? Please tell me!
Hotaru-san. Have you ever watched one of our live videos?
Yes. Natsume-san showed me one.
Kanata-san was extraordinary, was she not?
Yes...! She looked like she was having so much fun singing while playing such difficult phrases.
I already knew how incredible Kanata-san was from the street piano, but... I thought, maybe this is what people mean by a genius.
Ah...
So that is how she appeared to you as well.
...?
I just adore geniuses♡
One of a kind, flawless and unbound. An existence from another realm, beyond anyone's imitation.
I want them to shine, to glitter, with everything they have...
And I want them to burn me away completely.
U-um...?
But God can be cruel. One day, He simply took that away from me...
(What is she talking about...?)
I seem to have strayed from the topic.
Mahoro-san is trying to stand in for a genius named "Kanata Sawami."
A glass bead desperately polishing itself in hopes of becoming a diamond...
But you, of all people, can save Mahoro-san.
Please tell me! What should I do?!
It is simple. Share the pain with her, and cut it in half...
You should take on vocals too, Hotaru-san.
Vocals...?
Your performance at our last practice drew high praise. I found myself captivated as well.
That was when I noticed. Hotaru-san... you were singing softly to yourself, were you not?
Huh...?
Hehe. Was it unconscious?
Then that only makes it clearer. You should sing too, Hotaru-san.
If you do it without even realizing it, surely that means you love singing♡
...
(Me, sing...?)
(Actually, back when I used to play with Kanata-san... no, even before that...)
(When I was little, I did sing while I played.)
But... loving something and being able to sing properly are two different things, aren't they...?
Who can say? There is a saying, after all. Passion is the best teacher.
At the very least, with Mahoro-san in that state, I believe this is the only way to lighten her burden for now.
My, we have reached the station already. Well then, Hotaru-san. I shall see you at practice♡
Ah, yes...! Thank you for today...!
...
(Would doing that really help Mahoro-san...?)
(What would Kanata-san do... in a situation like this?)
(Kanata-san...)
♪
*Cough* Cough, cough...!
Ngh... Hah, hah...
This isn't good enough... Not even close...!
(This time, I have to get it right.)
(For everyone.)
(And for Kanata's dream... the dream she never got to fulfill.)
Oh... So, that's why we're "millsage"...? The French word for "thousand," and...
Corsage, a flower for celebration. millsage.
It's happiness I wanna share, more than we could ever hold in both hands.
...!
Back then, my heart felt like it might overflow.
Hey, Mahoro. Truth is, I...
I wanna enter Comet Rising.
Huh...?
Comet Rising. You know it, right? The proving ground for student bands.
It's a teen-only contest, and if you win, you get to play the open-air stage!
Oh, yeah. I think I've heard of it. They call it the Koshien for bands, right?
Wait... Did you just say you want us to enter that?
I did!
Honestly, this is what made me wanna start a band in the first place.
How cool is that?! The open-air stage, Mahoro! Suzuya Music Hall! The holy ground for bands!
Let's enter the next Comet Rising! Let's make our music ring out at Suzuya!
I had let myself be content with what we already had.
Huh~? Kanata, you really do spring things on people~ I think it's still a little early for us.
No way! millsage can do it! Today's school festival convinced me!
Suzuya Music Hall, huh? Not bad. That's a pretty good goal!
But... You just said you were happy, Kanata. Then isn't it okay for things to stay the way they are?
Dreams gotta be big!
I was afraid of flying higher than where we were.
Then... next time! It doesn't have to be this one. Maybe the one after?
Uh...
Yeah! Let's do that! By then, I'm sure we'll be even better and totally ready!
It's still a little early for us, right?
Hmm... I guess so.
If that's what you think, Mahoro, then let's do that!
Right, right! That's better.
I had no idea.
That Kanata did not have much time left.
(Kanata's dream never came true...)
(Because I never tried hard enough.)
(Because I was a coward, spoiled and weak.)
(The disappointed smile Kanata gave me back then... is burned into me and won't let go.)
(I have to atone...)
(I have to stand onstage at Suzuya Music Hall with millsage and send our music beyond the sky, all the way to Kanata.)
(Otherwise, I...)
(I could never forgive myself. Not even in death.)
14. Episode 14: Mortal and genius
125 lines♪
Mahoro. Time's about up.
♪
Mahoro... Mahoro, come on.
Eek?! What? What's up, Nagi-chan?!
Time's up... It's late.
Oh... you're right. But just a little bit longer...!
No. You've been staying late to practice every day. What are you going to do if you wreck your voice?
Come on. I'll grab your bag. We're leaving.
Aww... But I finally got the lyrics sorted out, and now I can focus on singing...
That's exactly why you need to take care of yourself.
Wait...? This Nikopan keychain... It's the one Shiomi-san found, isn't it?
Yeah. I went to Kanata's house to return it, but her family said we could keep it.
So I figured I'd keep it as a good-luck charm. It feels like Kanata is watching over us.
I see...
Sooo... Please! Just a little longer! Just a tiny bit!
*Sigh*...
Hey, Mahoro. Why are you pushing yourself this hard?
With Shiomi-san joining us, your burden could've gotten lighter if you'd let it, right?
And we aren't talking about disbanding anymore. That should've been enough for us.
So why are you backing yourself into a corner like this?
...
Aww, come on. Backing myself into a corner? That's so dramatic! I just don't want anyone to see me looking lame, that's all!
...
(There she goes again, hiding it behind a smile.)
(That same old habit she's had forever.)
(Does she really think an act that obvious is going to fool anyone?)
You're right, Nagi-chan. We don't have to disband anymore. But I don't think we can just stop there and call it enough.
(Why... does she always have to go there?)
(She wasn't like this back when Kanata was here.)
(The band was supposed to be about making memories while we were young.)
(That's why we could all smile the way we did.)
(I think that's what I liked about it...)
We're not trying to go pro, right...?
Y-yeah.
Then...
(Then why are you so set on moving forward? On reaching higher?)
(Are you... trying to change?)
(Is it so wrong to stay right here, just like this? To be a band playing music because we love it...)
(Without trying to become something else...)
(Don't leave me... behind.)
...!
Nagi-chan...?
(Not that I have the courage to say any of that. All the things I've let pile up inside me...)
(Or the courage... to let her see what a coward I am.)
Sorry. It's nothing.
But just don't push yourself too hard. Promise me.
Yeah... okay! I promise!
(And there I go too, smiling it away because that's all I can do.)
Hah...
(I really can't stand myself.)
Hello... Huh?
(It looks like no one's here yet. Maybe everyone is still at school.)
(What should I do...? Maybe I should practice first.)
(Our first live show is getting close too.)
...
You should take on vocals too, Hotaru-san.
(millsage's music was built around Kanata-san's vocals and piano.)
(That's why... Mahoro-san is trying so hard to stand in for Kanata-san.)
(But Kanata-san had a special kind of talent.)
(She isn't someone you can become just by trying to be like her.)
(Then...)
Share... the pain...!
(I don't think for a second... that someone like me could ever become Kanata-san.)
(But if Mahoro-san and I do this together...!)
♪
Mahoro... You've got dark circles under your eyes.
A lack of sleep is the enemy of good skin, you know?
Ahaha, I got a little carried away practicing at home.
Wait... the garage is unlocked.
S-sorry. I might have forgotten to lock it yesterday...!
Huh? I hear something. Sounds like Hotaru got here first.
!?
♪
Whoa...
...
(There are two kinds of people in this world.)
(Mortal and genius.)
(Shiomi-san is... the latter.)
(No matter how hard mortals struggle, they can never compete with geniuses.)
(So mortals should stick to being mortals.)
...!
(Mahoro... If you did that, you wouldn't have to get hurt like this, or suffer so much...)
♪ Phew...
Splendid, Hotaru-san!
What!? When did you all get here...?! You heard that...?!
Yes. Your singing voice was absolutely captivating♡
If you could sing, you should've said so sooner.
N-no! I was just...!
If I may, everyone. I have a suggestion...
What if Hotaru-san took on vocals as well?
!?
Hotaru too...? You mean dual vocals?
Yes, that would be the idea♪ What do you all think?
...
(I don't want Mahoro... to go through that kind of pain.)
(But there's nothing I can do for her.)
(I can't save Mahoro...)
(Then...!)
Sounds good to me.
What...!?
After hearing that, it'd be a waste not to have Shiomi-san sing.
I know you've been working hard, Mahoro. But apart from that, don't you think we could make our performance even better?
Right, Natsume-senpai?
Hmm... Well, yeah. If the two of them split the vocal parts, I do think it'd feel more stable.
It's worth trying.
And what do you two think? I do not believe it is a bad idea...
Ah...
Yeah! I think it's a great idea!
I mean, after hearing her sing like that, it'd be a waste not to let her do it!
It'd be a huge help to me too~!
...! R-really?
Yeah... I'm counting on you, Hotaru-chan!
Yes! If you're okay with it, Mahoro-san, I'd love to...!
Then it's settled. Let's start practicing right away. We need to decide who sings which parts.
My, Natsume-san. How enthusiastic of you♪
That's not it. We're reworking a song that used to be sung by one person into something for two, so we need to get started early!
Though I guess I do want to hear how it changes...
Yes... I am looking forward to it as well♪
Come on, everyone. Hurry up and get set up.
Okaaay.
(Let's do our best...!)
(For Mahoro-san, and for millsage's happiness!)
...
So it can be decided... just like that.
15. Episode 15: Each of their nights
82 linesWe did it...!
We did it, we did it, we did it! We got through the whole setlist!!
W-we actually made it through...!
Excellent work, everyone♪ It seems splitting the vocals was the right call after all.
Yeah... it really was! Thanks to you, Hotaru-chan, singing feels so much easier now.
...! I'm so glad you said that!
If anything still feels off, please don't hold back! I'll fix every last bit!
No, no, really! Everything's fine~ Your singing is amazing, Hotaru-chan!
Your piano is amazing, and now your singing too... I'm so glad you're here, Hotaru-chan. You're seriously a lifesaver!
Wh-what?! N-no, that's giving me way too much credit...
...
(Thank goodness.)
(Mahoro's burden really is getting lighter.)
(She probably wanted to carry it all herself, but...)
(Honestly... this setup is a lot easier to watch.)
Now then... I would love for us to bask in this joy a little longer, but it is getting dark outside.
Huh?! There's still a ton we need to polish!
And you all still need way more time to praise me, don't you?!
Indeed... We made it this far thanks to your capable direction, Natsume-san♪
Well... it is the day before the live show, after all...
I-I can keep going!
That's the spirit, Hotaru! Good answer!
Ahaha... No, Hotaru-chan, Natsume-chan. We need to have a good rest and be ready for tomorrow.
Yeah. Otherwise you might oversleep on show day, like Mahoro did that one time.
N-Nagi-chan~!
Haha, sorry. My bad.
*Sigh*... Fine. I'll let you off for today.
For only having a month, you did pretty well.
Indeed. Natsume-san's coaching has clearly borne fruit.
We shall continue counting on you from here on out♪
Hmph...! Well, obviously. This much is only natural for me.
All right, let's clean up and head home!
Okay~! Yes.
...
Shiomi-san.
Yes? What is it?
Here. Take these.
Huh...? Oh...!
Egg boro cookies...!
I-I can take them?! I love these!
I know. You said you liked them. Just a small thank-you.
For helping Mahoro.
(For keeping Mahoro from walking ahead all alone.)
Thanks.
(I'm sorry.)
From now on, I'm counting on you as a vocalist too... Hotaru.
! Y-yes!
It's tomorrow... the live show.
Yeah...
Nervous?
No... not really. Hotaru-chan is with us too.
Besides, it's not like this is our first live show.
Heh, true.
Oh, we're here.
Thanks for walking me home like always.
Well, we are childhood friends. Oh, tell your mom I said hi.
Tell her I'll come over for curry again soon.
Sounds good~ We haven't had a curry night in a while, huh? I'll tell her!
Yeah. Well... see you tomorrow.
Yeah, bye-bye!
...
(I'm so lame.)
(I said I would keep trying, but in the end, Hotaru-chan had to save me.)
(Everything I did... is half-baked.)
It's still so far away...
(If only I had more talent. If only I had anything I could be proud of.)
(Maybe the three of us could have made it work.)
(Even the dual-vocal setup... only happened because I couldn't handle it myself.)
(Back then, no one said they preferred it with only me on vocals.)
(They decided on dual vocals so easily.)
What... can I actually do...? Is there anything... I'm doing right...?
(Could I really say any of this to Kanata with my head held high...?)
...
No... I just have to keep working...!
Hello...? May I book a studio for right now...?
Hm, hm...♪
Hehe...
(Houka-san was right!)
(I sang, and I was able to help Mahoro-san...!)
(Maybe I'm really helping bring happiness back to millsage...!)
Hotaru? Dinner's almost ready.
Coming!
16. Episode 16: Dazzling song
125 lines...
Wah!
Hyaaah!?
Aha. Danger strikes when you least expect it.
N-Nagi-san!? Please don't startle me like that!
Sorry, sorry. I didn't mean to startle you that badly.
She's right. We're about to go on, so you need to let her concentrate.
Ahaha... You're right. I know I need to focus, but...
I just couldn't sleep much last night... *yawn*... S-Sorry...!
Hmph, so you couldn't sleep because you were nervous, right? Thinking, "What if I mess up?"
Ah, like Natsume-senpai before her first live?
Wh-whaaa!? I wasn't scared!
Well, I didn't exactly say that...
Hehe. There's no need to worry, Hotaru-san. You did just fine in rehearsal, too.
Ah... no. It wasn't just nerves keeping me up...
I just can't wait for today's live show.
Oh my. ♡
I've been practicing with everyone right up until today.
I think millsage's music... is truly wonderful.
If we can share that music with the audience... if we can deliver it with everything we've got...
I was just thinking... how happy it would make them...!
Honestly... Always thinking of others even at a time like this. Aren't you a bit too optimistic?
Oh, really? To me, it seems more like she's the most willful of us all.
Well, whatever. As long as it doesn't turn into weird pressure, it's fine.
...
Mahoro, are you sleep-deprived too? You're spacing out.
Huh...? Ah, sorry, sorry.
I'm just... trying to mentally focus.
That keychain you're clutching, it is Kanata's, right?
Yeah... I was asking her to watch over us.
I see...
...
I'm sure she's watching over us. I think so too.
You're right.
Looks like the band before us just finished. Should we head out soon?
Yes.
Yeah...
Ah. Mahoro-san. Your keychain...
...
(I can give it back to her later...! Right now, I need to focus on the performance...)
Alright, it's finally time. Let's go...!
Yes!
...
It's so bright...
(I have to go.)
(For millsage.)
(For Kanata.)
(My own feelings... they don't matter at all.)
Good evening, we're millsage!
First off, please let me introduce our new member!
Joining us as support on keyboards... Hotaru Shiomi-chan!
I-I hope you'll enjoy the show!
Keyboards? So she's replacing the old member?
That means she'll be singing, too.
Well, that might be for the better. Things had been feeling pretty stagnant.
I wonder what she's like. I'm looking forward to it.
...
Well then, please enjoy our first song! It's a new one, "Narasu"!
♪
(Amazing...!)
(So this is what a band live feels like!)
(My sound and everyone's sounds all blending together...)
(And it's reaching the audience, bursting forth...!)
Whoa! This is really good!
Yeah, yeah! And this new song is incredible! Isn't the new vocalist super skilled!?
(Everyone's raising their hands, laughing...)
(Happiness...)
...!
(Rainbow colors...!)
(I knew rainbow colors were the proof of happiness!)
♪
(I'd kept it locked away for so long...)
(Convincing myself I wasn't allowed to let it out.)
(But...!)
(I love music so much!)
(And it makes me so happy when people smile!)
(I wish this moment could last forever!)
...!!!
(Ahh... so dazzling... ♡)
(...! Even now, you're going to show us even more? Bring it on.)
(It's been a while since I felt this way. Genius really is hard on the heart.)
Waaaah!!
(Incredible...)
(This level of energy is beyond anything we've ever had before.)
(This is... Hotaru-chan's strength.)
(Because of her piano, and her voice...)
(Huh?)
(Then... what's the point of me being here?)
♪ *cough* ...
(Mahoro?)
(This isn't good. Her voice is giving up.)
(How did I sing back then...?)
(What was I supposed to sing again?)
(Huh...? Huh?)
(Why... am I even here...?)
...!
Huh, what's wrong? Trouble?
Looks like the other vocalist is struggling to sing.
Did she forget the lyrics? Give me a break.
(Wait, please...)
(No, that's not it...)
(millsage is so much more than this...)
(It's not just about someone like me...)
(If it were Kanata, she'd be so much more...)
♪
!
(Mahoro-san...! I'll sing your part for you!)
(Hotaru, nice save!)
♪
(I'll hold it together here...!)
(My singing, my piano... It's all for millsage.)
(To help everyone... so they can find happiness.)
(Because that's why I'm standing here right now!)
♪
Haa... Haa...
(Hotaru-chan is singing my part...)
(Her voice is so clear and beautiful, yet so strong.)
(She's so good.)
(I want to listen to her for much, much longer.)
(I feel so tired... somehow.)
(If I just stayed like this, right here...)
(Maybe I wouldn't have to sing anymore.)
(Maybe I wouldn't have to try anymore.)
(Ah, I see. So it's okay now.)
(Thank goodness.)
17. Episode 17: Paid
117 linesHaa... Haa...
(Huh?)
(In the end, I... made it all the way to the finish...)
Ah...!
Mahoro...!
Hey! Oh, come on!
That was millsage. Thank you very much.
Wait, hey, wait! ...Calm down, Mahoro!
I am calm.
Completely calm.
So... please don't look at me with those pitying eyes.
...! Mahoro...
That's enough. If you're going to fight, do it back in the dressing room. We've got a mountain of things to reflect on.
Could you please stay out of this? Right now I'm...
Natsume-chan. I think I understand things perfectly well.
The crowd was incredibly fired up. The only one who couldn't deliver... the only one who needs to reflect is me.
Sorry for causing so much trouble.
What?
Who gave you permission to wallow in self-pity like some tragic heroine?
Anyone can make a mistake during a live show. It just happened to be you this time.
I don't mean to blame you for...
I said I get it!!
...!?
All of it, all of it, I get it perfectly well!
That none of you blame me! That Hotaru-chan hasn't done a single thing wrong!
I get it! I do get it!
That I don't have the skill! That I have no talent!! That I could never possibly take Kanata's place!
I'm the one!! Who knows that best of anyone...!!
...!
Like I said! That's not what this is...
Um... I...! I'm the one who...
You're not to blame either. You did exactly what you had to do.
That's right. Hotaru-san, you saved this live until the very end.
There's no need for you to apologize...
You're the one, Houka.
Excuse me?
The one who should be apologizing is you, Houka.
You're the one who suggested bringing Hotaru into the band, and you're the one who pushed for her to sing, aren't you...!
Were you scheming for it to turn out like this from the very beginning!? Otherwise, you'd never care this much about the band...
Nagi!
...!
*Sigh*...
And what if I was?
Huh?
It's true that I've been acting according to my own objectives.
But as a result, hasn't millsage been revitalized up to this point?
Besides... it's not as if everything went exactly as planned. Even I couldn't have predicted what happened today.
I swear to you, I have no intention of hurting anyone.
That's not what this is about...!
You want to say that scheming is evil, don't you? Well then, Nagi-san, what about you?
...!
The moment you agreed to the idea of having Hotaru-san sing too, you must have understood it meant reducing Mahoro-san's singing parts.
Which means you, yourself, are what one would call an accomplice.
...!
I said that's enough! Both of you, be quiet!
(Huh?)
(I was supposed to bring everyone happiness, wasn't I?)
(How did it end up like this...)
Encore! Encore!
Huh...?
Wha? You're kidding, right? Today's live is a band battle event!?
It seems... the audience was quite pleased.
No... this is impossible...!
The vocalist!! You were the best!!!
This millsage revival is way too dramatic!! That vocal was way too passionate!!
Haha... I knew it.
Huh?
They're calling for you, vocalist.
Mahoro...!
Wait! Please wait!!
...
Hey, what are you two just standing there for! We're going after her!
That's not really my role, is it?
Since I already seem to be the bad guy here.
You are the worst... I... I knew it all along...!
And I told myself it was for Mahoro's sake...!
Aaarrgh...! You're all just a noisy mess!
Fine, I'm going alone! You two handle the audience! You can at least manage that much!!
Mahoro-san! Please wait, Mahoro-sa...
Don't come any closer!!
...
If you hadn't done that, the live couldn't have gone on.
I think what happened back there was for the best.
B-but... I... you, Mahoro-san...!
I never meant for any of this...!
...That's right. All of that was for the band's sake, wasn't it?
But hey... did you even notice?
...?
You were smiling, Hotaru-chan.
Right up to the end of the live. Until you finished singing, the whole time.
You were smiling, like you were having so much fun.
...Ah.
(...No...)
(Because I...)
(I wanted to help Mahoro-san.)
(I wanted her to find happiness...)
I... I'm sor...
...
Just leave me alone now.
Ah...
Wait...
Please wait...!
...Uuu...
(I'm such an idiot.)
(A complete idiot.)
(Those rainbow colors... they were the color of my own selfish desires.)
(My desire to simply enjoy music for my own satisfaction...)
(My wish to just stay steeped in it forever...)
(That's why I kept singing.)
(Because that space felt more comfortable than anything else...)
(Fooling myself into thinking I was saving someone...)
(In the end, it was all just about me...)
Uuu... uwaaaaaaaah...!!
Hotaru! Finally, I found you...!
...And Mahoro?
...I see.
Uuu... waaaaaaah...!!
18. Episode 18: Even if I have nothing
194 lines...Hotaru-san.
(I thought if I came to the nearest station, there might be a chance...)
(But it seems she's not going to come out to see me after all.)
(She didn't reply to the message I sent last night, either.)
(This means... I guess she's grown to hate me.)
*Sigh*... I guess this is where it ends, then.
(Once again, I could not escape from this version of me.)
Houka-chan, you're amazing!
That's our Houka-chan!
Thanks to Izumi-san, there's nothing to worry about!
Ehehe, not at all. It's all thanks to everyone.
Back then, I was full of myself.
I was simply reasonably capable and good at getting along with others.
Just through that, and by pure luck, I happened to end up at the center of my social circle, and I gradually began to wonder...
"What exactly is it about me that people value?"
I don't possess any exceptional talent, nor have I put in any blood, sweat, and tears.
So why was someone like me "at the <ruby=>center</ruby> of the <ruby=>circle</ruby>?"
...After that, a classmate invited me to join a band, but that question only grew louder with each passing day.
That vocalist is amazing!
Izumi-san! I've become your fan!
It was as if the whole world was lying to me.
As if, even though I was right there, no one was actually looking at me.
That was when I met her.
Nice to meet you! Uh, what was it again? Oh, right, the band name!
Ah, we are... Aqua Rapids!
♪
...♡
She was the real deal. I was certain of it.
If I stayed by her side, I could just be a background character.
The light she radiates could burn to ash this fabricated version of me that everyone has built...!
That's how it was supposed to be. And yet...
(Just as I thought, my whole life... will end without anything ever coming true.)
...Found you.
! ...Oh my.
Why, if it isn't Natsume-san♪
...Even after everything that happened yesterday. I can't believe you're acting so perfectly normal.
I'm hurt you'd think that. I'm waiting around here because I want to apologize to Hotaru-san, isn't that obvious?
I honestly can never tell what you're thinking... Whatever.
Just answer one question for me.
?
Do you have the will to keep going with millsage?
...Yes, of course.
Right. Then let's go, right away.
? Go where?
To go get her. Hotaru.
...Uh, well...
Hah, so even you make a face like that! Now that's a rare sight.
It's true you've pulled some absolutely insane stunts. The kind where you couldn't even complain if the other members ended up hating you for it.
But, well, I couldn't care less about any of that. The only thing I have to protect is the music we made with Kanata.
As long as that doesn't fade away and disappear, I say go ahead and fight or deceive each other all you want.
(I had thought she was someone who lived purely for the approval of others...)
(It seems she's surprisingly iron-nerved.)
...? You just said "Hotaru-san," but...
Don't we need to go get Mahoro-san and Nagi-san, too?
Huh? Ah.
As for them, I already sent someone to go get them ages ago.
...
Nagi-chan...
! Mahoro...!
...Could it be you've been waiting here this whole time?
Yeah... I figured just barging into your place was a bit too much.
Even though I'd been ignoring all your messages?
...But I figured you'd read them eventually, right?
...What's that supposed to mean?
...Mahoro, I'm sorry.
I... I hurt you.
...I'm the worst, aren't I?
...You really are.
...
But... I'm the worst, too.
Huh...
About Houka-chan... surprisingly, I'm not all that angry at her.
I mean, sure, it was a shock... but it felt like, well, it makes sense that she'd think I was unreliable.
...That's not...!
...
The vocals, the bass, the lyrics... I thought I could do them, too. That I should be able to.
I just got it into my head that I had to do them all, ignored what you were saying, pushed myself too hard, and just spun my wheels...
And the result was that I self-destructed on stage at the live...
It's just... so uncool, isn't it?
...No, you were working really hard, Mahoro.
...That's not what I mean.
You were trying to hold everyone together, and you never gave up on the vocals or the lyrics...
I said, that's not what I mean!!
...!?
I already get it... that I don't have talent or charisma or any of that! But...!
...Mahoro...
Aaaaaaaah!!! It's so frustrating!!!!
!?
I lost so completely to Hotaru-chan! She's in middle school, and I'm in high school!!
Everyone picked Hotaru-chan over me!!
I'm frustrated that I lost, and I'm frustrated that I was never recognized, but...!
Yesterday... when I heard Hotaru-chan sing, a part of me thought "It's okay now" and just... gave up and felt so much lighter...!
And the fact that I let myself accept defeat is what frustrates me more than anything!!
...Mahoro...
Geez, why don't I have any talent!
Isn't it okay to admire someone!? Isn't it okay to dream!? I want to believe I'm the protagonist, too!!
Someone who sparkles, who draws everyone in and never lets them go... Something like that...! I, too...!
I, too... wanted to be just like Kanata...
...Kanata was special. She was an invincible hero.
...
Then, why...?
If she was invincible, if she was more of a protagonist than anyone else... Why did she have to die...?
Why, tell me why!? Why did Kanata have to die!?
...I don't know...
I don't know, okay...! Things like that...
Why did she leave us behind...!! Why!? Tell me!!
I said I don't know!!
...
I've thought it too, so many times... wishing it was all just a dream...!
That Kanata would just pop out from around the corner, saying "It was all a lie..."
So many times, so many times...!
Why... why? There should have been so much more to come.
We still had the cultural festivals for our second and third years of high school, and the school trip!
Deciding our paths, taking entrance exams! All of us going to the same university and continuing the band!
We were supposed to have that kind of future...!
...Yeah.
We really were.
What the hell...! Everything, every single thing, is so frustrating and makes me so mad...!
I miss you, Kanata...!
Laugh at me and call me an idiot...!
Uuuh... *sob*
Uwaaaaaaaah...!
*Sniffle*... *Hic*...
Nagi-chan, got any tissues...
...I'm all out.
...Geez, come on.
*Sniffle*... Ahh~ It's been so long since I cried this much.
...Now that you mention it. It's been a while since I've seen you make such a fuss, Mahoro.
Hey, saying I'm "making a fuss" is kind of mean, isn't it...?
Well, I mean. When we were kids, you and Kanata used to argue a lot and both end up crying, didn't you?
But after we started the band, even when we fought, it was like we'd become somewhat more like adults.
Well... we can't be kids forever, you know.
Yeah... and that's why...
It gets harder to say what you really feel, I guess.
Even Natsume-senpai and Houka. We've been together a long time, but we might have never really talked honestly with each other.
...Maybe.
...Mahoro. You haven't cried at all since Kanata passed away.
Not even at the funeral.
...!
If you're carrying something, I want you to tell me.
I don't want you to have to shoulder it alone anymore.
...
You know... I got in the way of Kanata's dream.
Comet Rising. The Koshien of bands, only for teenagers.
At the afterparty, she told me she wanted to enter it.
But I... I'd never thought about that kind of future, you know.
I was having too much fun... and I was scared of things changing. So I ended up saying... let's do it later, not right now.
To Kanata, who knew better than anyone that she didn't have time.
...
I keep thinking... if I hadn't said that, maybe we could have entered before Kanata died.
Or even if not... if I'd just given her a proper answer back then, and said "Let's do it..."
Then maybe Kanata's feelings could have been saved, even just a little...
When I thought that... I felt I had to make it come true for her.
...So that's why you were pushing yourself so recklessly?
Yeah... But in the end, I guess I could never be Kanata after all.
Yesterday's live made me realize that, as much as I hated it.
...
I'm a terrible person, aren't I? Dragging everyone down with my own guilt.
...I wonder.
What Kanata really thought... only Kanata knows that.
...That's true.
Ah, geez... What am I supposed to do now?
Having it shoved in my face that I have no talent... and not even being able to atone properly...
...What can I even do?
...
...You know. Wouldn't it be okay... if you just quit the band?
...Huh?
I've said it before. I don't want to see you in pain, Mahoro. ...I think choosing that path is okay, too.
...I see.
...Yeah... I guess so...
Yeah... we did once end up talking about doing that. ...And, you know, your feelings about Kanata...
...The adults told us, didn't they? At the funeral, "Time will heal it."
"Time will heal even your sadness..."
...
...I don't want that.
Ah, geez, this feeling just keeps coming back again and again... But I hate it.
...I still don't want it to end. Not my feelings for Kanata... and not my story, either.
I can't take Kanata's place. I don't have talent like Hotaru-chan. I'll never be chosen as the protagonist.
I have nothing. I'm just an empty shell.
I get it now. It's so painfully clear. But if I step down now, it's over.
Even if it hurts, I can't step down.
I don't want to use having nothing as an excuse to end it...!
...Aha. You really are stubborn.
Fine, then. That's good enough.
...Huh?
I said, that's good enough. We just have to face it... and keep on living.
Nagi-chan...
Well, I don't really know, though.
I mean, with the band in this state... who knows if we can even do it again.
True...
Cold.
The sea breeze is way too cold.
Right. It stings.
Let's go.
19. Episode 19: In happiness
248 lines...
I'd like to properly apologize for what happened yesterday.
I'll be waiting for you in front of the ticket gates at the nearest station from your home.
(She mentioned scheming, or whatever she called it...)
(But I don't have any right to blame her.)
(No. More than that...)
(The one who messed up millsage... was me.)
(Even though it was Kanata-san's treasure.)
(Even though I wanted her to be happy.)
(, It was my fault for getting lost in those rainbow colors and forgetting everything.)
(I was just selfishly enjoying the music for myself.)
(Someone like me, wanting to make everyone happy...)
(How presumptuous.)
I have to quit the band.
There's no way I can stay after this...
(Barging my way in, and now trying to leave on my own... I'm truly the worst. ...But.)
It's far better than... making things any worse than they already are.
!
(A call...? Natsume-san...)
Hello?
Hotaru! Where are you right now!?
I-I'm at home.
Never mind that, get ready and come out right away. Meet us at that café from before.
Huh!? But, I...!
Oh, hush. This is an order from your senpai. You don't have the right to refuse!
I have to tell her.
...
Hotaru-san, thank you for coming all this way.
Why is Houka-san here...?
I picked her up in front of your station. She'd been waiting there like a loyal dog this whole time.
Hotaru-san. About yesterday, I am truly sorry.
...! No, it's me who caused everyone trouble... And, um... so, I...
I told you, didn't I? You just did what you had to do. You could even be proud of it as a great save.
...
It was the four of us who decided to have you sing, too. The responsibility lies with us as well.
We all messed up, but we somehow got through the live. That's all there is to it.
Well, as for Houka, who was apparently using you, feel free to hate her or despise her as much as you like.
Honestly, did you have to put it like that?
...
Knowing you, you're thinking things like "I shouldn't be in the band anymore," aren't you?
...!?
Knew it.
That's not happening. I won't allow you to quit. You were the one who told me not to quit.
...
I'm begging you, too.
You may not believe me, but... you are my hope.
Huh?
A light, a flame, a reaper, a messiah.
Your music brings me happiness.
Are you kidding? If you're going to make this even more complicated, just go home.
I'm completely serious...
...
I'm doing this band for Kanata's sake. But...
That's not the only reason. I'm also doing it for myself, so I can keep my feelings for Kanata alive.
And simply put, I just like the band.
...
What about you? How do you feel about the band?
I...
!
From Mahoro-san...?
Hah, perfect timing.
Everyone, can you come to the garage?
I want us to have a proper talk about what happened yesterday.
We're here.
Ah, Natsume-chan... and, you two as well.
You were all together, huh?
Sort of. Did you two sort things out?
Well... More or less.
Right. Good.
...
Um...! Um...!
Okay, stop. You two can have your apology time later.
You have something important to say, right? Mahoro.
Ahaha... I appreciate you getting straight to the point.
Hotaru-chan...
! Yes...
I'm sorry about yesterday. For saying those terrible things. Even though I should be thanking you, Hotaru-chan.
N-no, that's not true!
It is true. Because Hotaru-chan sang for us, the live was saved from falling apart.
No... it wasn't just the live. millsage itself is still here today because of how hard you tried, Hotaru-chan.
Thank you. Truly.
...
I've been thinking...
A lot happened, and I was made painfully aware of my own powerlessness.
Even so, I don't want this band to end. That, at least, is the honest truth for me.
So I want to keep millsage going.
What about everyone else?
Hah. After calling us back here, did you think I'd tell you to go play somewhere else now?
I'm in.
Of course, I'd like to join as well, but...
...
Hotaru-chan. What about you?
I...
...
So, Hotaru-chan. How was it... being in the band?
Huh...
For me, when Hotaru-chan came, my stopped time started moving again...
It made me think, once again, that bands are wonderful, and music is wonderful.
Wasn't it like that for you too, Hotaru-chan?
...
I... I am also...
...
I, too... thought music is wonderful...! Being in a band was so much fun!
Before I knew it, everyone's sounds were surrounding me... so warm, so happy...!
Yeah.
But! My music... it ends up hurting people...!
That's why I... I really shouldn't be in a band after all.
Today, I came to say that...
I see... yeah, that makes sense...
I, Mahoro Hamasaki, won't let myself get hurt anymore, so I'll be fine!
!?
You know, at yesterday's live... Honestly, I got mixed up too, and I think I acted terribly... I'm truly sorry.
But! I'm standing in front of you once more now.
I've decided to face you head-on. I won't run away anymore.
And so... from now on, I have a request. I want you to take over vocals, Hotaru-chan.
!?
Wh-what are you saying...!? There's no way I can do that...!
Because...! At yesterday's live, I...!
Just so you know, it's not just Mahoro.
I, for one, have absolutely no intention of losing to the music of someone like you, either.
Huh, didn't you get reduced to tears the other day?
Don't bring that up, you dummy!
Aha... well, that's how it is. We've gotten somewhat used to having a genius around thanks to Kanata.
That's right. If you don't play with everything you've got, there would be no point in inviting you. ♡
...
Hotaru-chan.
Please join millsage. We need your music.
...
B-but...!
Of course it's hard to believe. After the way things went yesterday, you can't trust us.
That's not what I...!
No, it's okay. Well then, I'll just have to prove it so you can believe.
...?
Hotaru-chan. Let's have a session together.
!?
A-a session...?
To be precise, it's more like a battle, I guess?
We'll each take turns playing and singing one chorus of "Narasu".
This is a contest, Hotaru-chan.
...!
Hah! Now that's more like it. I'll watch closely to the very end for you.
Of all the things to suggest...
But, it's a proposal we're quite familiar with, isn't it?
Then I'll go first. Is that alright? Hotaru-chan.
...
If you want to say you don't want to do it... that's still okay.
So, just for now. Listen to my song!
...
♪
...!
(This is the first time I've seen this side of Mahoro-san.)
(Her singing voice, her sound... it's not just that. It's music that feels like she's shouting with her whole body.)
(Shouting that she wants to face me.)
(Trying to convey her determination to me.)
(, Ah, I see.)
(This is also Mahoro-san's cheer for me.)
(If we had simply swapped vocal roles...)
(I would still be lost.)
(Making it clear who the vocalist is... this is a kind of ritual for that, too.)
♪
(Mahoro-san is amazing.)
(Even though it must be painful for Mahoro-san, too.)
(Even though she must have wanted to stand in the center and sing...!)
(Smiling like that.)
(Taking the hand of a frightened me and pulling me forward.)
(I want to respond to this person's all-out efforts, too.)
Mahoro-san...!
Haa... Haa...!
Next! It's your turn, Hotaru-chan!
Yes...
(How incredibly fortunate I am.)
(To meet such wonderful people, and to be accepted by them...)
(Hey, Kanata-san.)
(I think I may have found the answer to that homework.)
(How to make "music that makes everyone happy." The answer to that.)
(Those rainbow colors are my own desires.)
(Selfish music that ends up hurting others. So I must not let it out... That's what I thought.)
(But...)
(If I truly want to make "everyone" happy, I have to include "myself" in that "everyone," too.)
(Otherwise, it wouldn't be a true happy ending.)
(So, I won't run anymore.)
(Thank you, Mahoro-san. Everyone.)
(Performing with this fulfilled feeling in my heart...)
(That itself is the music that can make everyone happy!)
♪
...!
Ahahah!
Yeah, you really are so good.
Right, Kanata?
I-I'm sorry! I'm late!
Making your senpais wait, our new vocalist must be quite the big shot now.
Uugh...
That's not nice, Natsume-chan, teasing her like that. She let us know in advance she had cleaning duty, didn't she?
That's right. We just got here ourselves a moment ago.
Take your time settling in before we practice, okay? ♡
Yes...!
Ah, in that case, while we're at it... I have a major announcement to make!
...?
What? Are you finally giving up on writing lyrics?
I am not! I'll keep at it even if it kills me!
Then what?
Like how you went back for three more servings of curry the other day?
Hey!?
Oh my, I think that's a very healthy sign♪
Wait, wait, that's not it! I only did twice... wait, not that either!
Ahem.
What do you all think about aiming for Comet Rising together?
!
Heh, not bad.
Comet Rising...?
It's a Koshien-style contest where only teenage bands are eligible, isn't it?
That's right! millsage will aim for qualifying for the finals... no, we'll aim to win the whole thing!
The finals were at the open-air amphitheater, weren't they? Suzugaya Music Hall.
Standing on the holy ground for bands... That's the coolest thing ever.
But why so suddenly...?
Kanata said she wanted to enter.
! What's this, I'm hearing it for the first time.
Ah, that's probably because I turned it down before it even came up with you, Natsume-chan...
I see...
Ah, but, you know! It's not just for Kanata.
For myself personally, too, I want to aim for it.
A lot has happened, but I don't want to give up on taking on challenges.
Hah. You make it sound so easy. Comet's called the "Gateway to Success for the Next Big Band," you know.
I-I know. But, I want to do it.
Yeah... I think it's good.
Nagi-chan...!
Well, it'll start with properly waking up on time in the morning first, I guess.
Geez! Treating me like a kid again!
Aha, sorry.
I have to make sure I don't get left behind, too.
Well, I have no objection to taking on a challenge. Why not? It's a stage perfectly suited for me.
Hehe, I have no objection either♪ A big stage, I'm very much looking forward to it.
Hotaru-chan?
Yes, let's do it!
...! Then it's decided!
Since we're aiming for it, practice will be grueling, so don't start complaining, alright?
Ugh, I might complain just a little sometimes...?
Well then, shall we submit the application right away?
Oh, that was fast.
First, live shows. We need more experience; there's no question about it.
You're right. We have to build up more experience...! We're aiming for Comet, after all!
(Let's do our best.)
(I'll protect millsage's... and Kanata-san's happiness.)
(And then, surely, beyond that... my own happiness will...)
A happy ending.
A happy ending where not a single person is crying or sad, where everyone is smiling.
That's how it was supposed to be.
The truth is, I didn't understand anything at all.
20. Episode 20: Happy end
153 lines(Tomorrow... let's do our best...!)
(Because they told me they need my sound, my rainbow colors.)
(As millsage's pianist. As their vocalist.)
(From now on, I'll keep making music that brings happiness to everyone...!)
...Ah.
(Kanata-san's keychain... After everything that happened, I missed my chance to return it.)
(I need to return it to Mahoro-san tomorrow.)
...?
(What's this? Nikopan-chan's head came off...?)
Ah...!
(This... is a USB flash drive...!)
(Is there some kind of data on here...?)
...
(Would it be okay... if I just take a quick peek...?)
Wow...!
(Amazing...! It's full of rough song drafts and lyric notes!)
"I'll definitely make Natsume acknowledge me!"
"It's Houka Time!"
"A unison part for Mahoro and Nagi?"
Hehe. There are lots of doodles, too.
It feels like... I got to see Kanata-san again after such a long time.
...?
(There's one file all the way at the bottom... what is this?)
(This is...?)
Huh?
H-how does it look...!
Wow, it really suits you!
Yes. I'm glad it was ready in time. ♡
Was yours made by your friend too, Hotaru?
Yes. She has a strong background in fashion♪
Actually, it's been a while since we wore these costumes ourselves.
Yeah. After what happened with Kanata, we were a little hesitant to put them on.
But we do need to wear them to really get into the right mindset.
Hehe, it's perfect for the start of our new lineup.
Well, I think it's important to get the form right from the start, too.
Hah, we're going to win Comet Rising, after all, right? We might as well start thinking about what to wear for the finals.
That's incredibly premature.
Isn't it wonderful, though? It just shows how motivated everyone is♪
Exactly, since we're making a fresh start from here on out.
Right, Hotaru-chan?
...
"4/16"
"I've always been cursing God."
Huh?
"The entrance ceremony, sports day, the school trip. I have almost no memories of them."
"They're all chipped away, incomplete."
"Why keep me alive if you won't give me an ordinary youth?"
"Why me? Why did I get sick? Why do I have to die? Why, why, why?"
"Drop dead, God."
...
"9/4"
"My story hasn't even begun yet."
"Does it end here?"
"I want to spill it all. I don't want to die. I'm scared. I want to scream."
This...
"I want to tell them, I want to reach out, 'Help me.' Hey, why is it only me?"
"But I don't want to be a curse on them."
Haa... Haa... Haa...
"I saw a news story about the annual suicide statistics and things like that."
"Life isn't fair at all. Nothing at all is equal."
"Hey, please, someone."
"I promise I won't waste it. I'll do anything."
"I'm begging you."
"Give that life to me."
...
"10/9"...
"My story. A life with me at the center."
"But even if I'm gone, the world will keep turning." "Everyone's stories will go on."
"millsage. Will it end? Will it go on?"
"Ah, but I hate it. The thought of someone other than me at the center."
"It makes me sick."
...!
"millsage. My happiness."
"At least millsage..."
"Burn it along with my coffin."
...
Ah... Aah...
I-I... I...!
I think... there's no way Kanata-san would have wanted an ending like the band disbanding...!
If that were the case, it wouldn't be millsage...! I wouldn't be able to face Kanata-san!
(I'll protect millsage's... and Kanata-san's happiness.)
(And then, surely, beyond that... my own happiness will...)
Ah... Ah...!
I-I'm so... I'm so sorry...! Uuu...!
...! Waah, aaaaaaaah...!
...
Kanata-san. I finally understand.
What it is I truly have to do.
...
Hotaru-chan? What's wrong?
No, I'm fine!
(I was wrong from the very beginning.)
(Everything I've done, all of it.)
Are you just itching to start playing? Or are the nerves finally hitting you?
...I was just getting fired up to do my best.
Because I'm going to make absolutely sure we succeed.
...? Well, in that case, good.
Oh, looks like it's almost our turn.
I've been waiting long enough.
Hehe, let's enjoy this♪
Alright... let's go, everyone.
Ah... Mahoro-san.
? What is it?
Here... Kanata-san's keychain.
You were holding onto that for me, Hotaru-chan! I thought I'd lost it.
Um, I know this is a really presumptuous thing to ask, but... may I keep it?
I... want to use it as a good luck charm...
...! That makes sense. You're still feeling a bit uneasy, after all.
Go ahead and hold onto it, Hotaru-chan. I'm sure it'll be a source of strength for you from now on.
Thank you so much.
I'll carry it with me to my grave.
(I'm sorry, Kanata-san.)
(I didn't understand your true wish at all.)
(I just took those words at face value, got it into my head all on my own, and turned the band into a mess.)
(And then, I stole the center spot of millsage.)
(I am truly sorry.)
(No amount of apologizing will ever be enough.)
(I can never atone.)
(So at least, to make amends for what I've done to you...)
(I'll throw away my own "happiness.")
(I love happy endings.)
(I love stories where, in the end, everyone is smiling.)
(But this story isn't mine.)
(There's no way I should make it my story.)
(There's no way I should be the protagonist, or even a character in it.)
(, And so.)
Waahhh!!
millsage!!!
Hotaru!!! Natsume!!!
...
I can go anytime.
Same here. ♡
Come on, hurry up.
Hotaru-chan, please!
...
(The one standing here isn't "me".)
(Just a tool to make sound.)
(Singing just to grant wishes, just a piece of stage machinery.)
(Rainbow colors. That homework from Kanata-san. I never needed any of that from the very start.)
(Someone like me, wishing for her own happiness...)
(I was nothing but a fool.)
(I'll guide Mahoro-san and the others to Comet.)
(And I'll bring an end to millsage.)
(That way, Mahoro-san's and everyone's wishes, and Kanata-san's wish... they can all be granted equally, right?)
(Hey, Kanata-san.)
(This time, I'll make it happen for sure.)
Waahhh!
(My throat and my fingers. My voice and my keyboard.)
(Bringing only those with me to this place...)
(I'll shine. Only for everyone's happiness.)
(And then, there you'll see...)
We are millsage. Thank you for having us!
(What a wonderful happy ending!)
21. Happy end
Side story · 71 linesYou really like this place, don't you?
Yeah. I figured this was the place for an afterparty, you know? Look, there's so much sky. It feels so open, or something.
This is where we held our afterparty after our first live too, wasn't it?
I think that was Mahoro's idea too... Here. Drinks.
Thanks, Nagi-chan. Everyone else got one too?
Yes.
All right, then. Here's to the success of our first live with this new lineup...
Cheeeers!!
Ahh...! So good!
Aha. Same reaction as last time, too?
Huh? Did I say that last time too?
Someone said you sounded like some old man.
Hey! I'm a high school girl, you know!?
...
(I'm so glad... The live went well.)
(Everyone's story... Kanata-san's story.)
(If I'm going to see it through to a happy ending, then I...)
Great work today, Hotaru-san♡
Ah... Houka-san. Great work today.
Today's live was wonderful as well.
I can't quite put it into words, but it had a kind of power unlike anything before...
I was so... deeply moved♡
I'm so glad you enjoyed it.
(Houka-san... She said she had a reason for asking me to join the band, but...)
...?
(I'm sure Houka-san has a happiness she longs for too, and that's why she needed me.)
(Then I have to make that wish come true, too!)
Hey, Houka. You're not pestering Hotaru about something weird again, are you?
My. What a dreadful thing to say... Isn't it, Hotaru-san?
Not at all. She was only saying our performance at the live was good.
Hah. You're still in middle school, so you probably wouldn't know, but anyone who praises you that freely is bound to be suspicious.
Is that so...?
How cruel... *Sniff*...
No matter how much she dotes on you, I'm still keeping a close eye on you.
One big success isn't enough. It's success every time that counts. Don't get carried away over this.
Yes! I'll give it everything I've got!
What...? You're awfully fired up.
Yes, I am!
Because that's what I'm here for!
Ooh, big words from the youngest one.
Ah... Did I sound a little too full of myself...?
No? It's entertaining to watch, at least.
Hotaru-chan, great work today, again. And look, there are tons of snacks too~
Thank you. I'll have some later.
Oh, come on, don't hold back! I mean, Hotaru-chan was basically the star of today's live.
Then of course you're the star of this afterparty too, Hotaru-chan!
The star...
(That role belongs to Kanata-san.)
(I don't need happiness for myself.)
You're giving me too much credit. I could only play the way I did today because of all of you.
Aww, such a good girl... At this rate, I might even go buy you a cake, you know?
(Sweet treats. A reward.)
(A happiness I don't need.)
Thank you. I'll gladly accept the thought!
Hey! Don't go spoiling her!
Aha. Such a strict mom.
If sweets won't do, then perhaps a session in the Garage?
I'm sure it would be such fun♡
A session...
(Something that could be fun for me.)
(I don't need that either.)
Something's fishy... Are you the one suggesting a session?
Yes. One live simply wasn't enough... I would so like to lose myself in more of Hotaru-san's music♡
Knew it. Pure self-interest.
Come on, it's an afterparty. Let's keep things peaceful~
...
(What I want is for everyone to be happy.)
(The other five... Their happiness, not mine.)
(That's why.)
Please tell me everything... you all want to do.
I'll make every last one of those wishes come true!
22. Happy end
Side story · 56 linesHmm...
This isn't the phrase. It fits in all wrong.
It needs something with real flair... Like...
Um... Excuse me!
...?
We were hoping to film a dance video up here...
Oh, yeah? Knock yourselves out.
No, um... That's why...
? What?
Come on, you have to say it properly!
But she's scary...!
Fine, I'll say it!
...?
Well, since we're filming a dance video... could you stop playing your guitar for a little while?
Huh? Why?
It's not like I'm trying to get in your way. I said you could do whatever you wanted.
No... We're going to dance, you know? Obviously, we'll be playing the song so we can hear it.
Wouldn't your guitar get in the way?
Get in the way...? Did you just say my guitar is getting in the way?
Eek...
Ugh... This is exactly why brainless kids are the worst... You have no idea, do you?
Aren't you the one who doesn't get it? We're trying to make some good high school memories here.
We're not like some senior who plays guitar all alone!
Oh? Well, aren't you feeling bold.
Then I'll say exactly what I think. Is that really the kind of youth you're satisfied with?
What...?
If one person playing guitar is enough to throw off your dancing, your skills must be pretty damn shallow. And you're going to put that on display?
You'll put your faces and the name of your school all over social media, and all you'll get is a few fleeting "likes."
And what good will that do you for the rest of your lives?
W-Wha...!
You can't become someone, so you throw yourselves into whatever gives you an easy way to feel fulfilled.
I'd rather play guitar alone a thousand times over than live a life lying to myself.
L-Let's just go...! I'm sorry. Excuse us!
H-Hey, wait... Ugh! You don't even get to make memories like this 'cause you're a loner!
Hmph. At least she has a gift for parting shots.
Wait... What I just said was pretty cool, wasn't it...?
I have to add that to my autobiography notes...!
*Sigh*... You really caused another scene, didn't you?
What!? Nagi... and Houka too!? How long have you been there!
We have only just arrived♪
People in class were getting all excited about going up to the rooftop, so I had a bad feeling about it.
And, well... it was exactly what I expected.
What? It's like you're saying this is all my fault.
It is, though... We're the ones who'll be getting complaints later, you know.
Not my problem.
How cruel. You were so dependable when millsage was in trouble.
Exactly. You were even the one who kept everyone together.
You two only join forces at times like this...
You've got the wrong idea. I didn't do that for either of you.
?
I told you. I only wanted to protect Kanata's music... and the band.
If you all quit on your own and broke up the band, I'd be the one in trouble.
Well, I understand that much, but...
Could you perhaps live a little more peacefully?
Hmph. That's impossible...
I'd rather play guitar alone a thousand times over than live a life lying to myself.
23. In happiness
Side story · 61 lines*Yawn*...
Aha. Sleepy?
Ahaha... Yeah. I guess practice wore me out.
Well, Natsume-senpai was pretty tough on us today, too.
Maybe. You know, we finally have our next live lined up, so she's all fired up.
She's plenty fired up even normally.
Come on, Natsume-chan will get mad at you again. She'll say you're setting a bad example for Hotaru.
True...
(It's been about a week since that session.)
(Mahoro should have been hurt, but before I knew it, she was smiling like she always did.)
Oh, I just remembered! We need to put in the order for Hotaru-chan's costume!
Oh, right. Hotaru's finally getting a costume.
Of course she is. She's officially a member now. I need to talk to Houka-chan about it tomorrow~
By the way, we'll be wearing ours too, right? Has it been about six months?
Yeah... I think the school festival last year was the last time.
Oh...
But... it'd be a shame to leave them tucked away forever, right? They're such cute costumes.
Wait, come to think of it, I haven't worn mine once since then...? Uh-oh... Do you think it'll still fit me?
Well, I guess that depends on what Mahoro's been eating for the past six months.
I-I'm gonna believe it'll be fine...!
Aha. Good luck.
You know... We've been through a lot, but...
I think this is where we make a fresh start.
Hotaru-chan joined us, and the band's back. And now we have a new goal too: Comet Rising.
A goal... huh.
Hey, Mahoro. Why did you decide to enter Comet Rising again?
Huh?
Is it really for yourself...?
(Aren't you still carrying something with you?)
Ahaha... I can't say it's 100 percent for me.
I thought so...
But you don't have to worry.
You said it yourself, Nagi-chan. All we can do is just face it and keep going.
It won't go away... I'm sure it never will, not for as long as I live.
We'll carry our feelings for Kanata with us for all our lives.
...
But just as much... the part of me that refuses to give up won't go away either.
So this time, I want to aim for it for myself, too!
...!
(, Aren't you afraid?)
(No... That's not it. I'm the only one still worried about that.)
I'm sure it won't be easy.
Ahaha... Yeah.
But if it were easy, it wouldn't mean anything.
For someone like me, who has nothing, to get hold of anything, I have to struggle harder and sacrifice more than anyone else.
And even so, I can't help wanting to keep moving forward.
I see...
(You're so strong, Mahoro.)
(While I keep turning away from challenges and hard work...)
(Mahoro is still trying to move forward, even if she has to crawl her way there.)
(I can't do that... I can't put myself on the line like that.)
(And yet...)
Huh... I was sleepy a minute ago, but now I'm getting hungry...
(I don't want to be left all alone.)
(I'm terrified of being the only one standing still.)
Ooh! Mom just texted me! Wait, we're having minced meat cutlets tonight!? Yay!
(That's why...)
Hey, Nagi-chan, why are you zoning out? Let's go home~!
Hurry up, or I'm gonna leave you behind~!
Aha...
Yeah, I'm coming.
24. Happy end
Side story · 61 linesMmmmmm...
Nnngh...!
N-No good...
(What am I going to do...? Natsume-chan sent over the demo for the new song, but I haven't made any headway on the lyrics...)
(I somehow managed to write "Narasu"... but it didn't feel like this back then...)
*Yawn*...
(Ugh... Maybe it's because I just had dinner...)
(I'm getting... sleepy...)
We're gonna start a band! So... what're we gonna do?
I mean, you're the one who wanted to start a band, Kanata.
Yeah, but... Mahoro, got any ideas?
Whaaat? You're asking me!? Um... Hmm... Should we come up with autographs?
Ooh, such a great idea! What do you think, Nagi?
The exit is that way.
Ah~! I can still help~!
For starters, we need instruments, and somewhere to practice... There's already a lot to think about.
But most importantly, what kind of songs are we going to play?
None of us but Kanata has played an instrument before, and we'll need to think about how hard the songs we cover are, too.
Wait, we're doing covers?
Huh? Aren't we?
I mean, we can, but... y'know, if we're doing this, we'd want to write original songs, right?
Composition and lyrics... Maybe I can handle those, y'know!
...
What's with those looks?
Well... you can play piano, at least...
And Kanata's surprisingly good in Japanese class...
"Surprisingly" was unnecessary! I'm a beautiful young literary genius!
Yeah, yeah. Literary genius.
Hmm... But how do people even go about writing lyrics?
Sometimes I'll hear a popular song and think, "Yeah, I get that," but...
I can't really imagine how anyone comes up with lyrics that make you feel that way.
Yeah... I guess?
Hmm... Maybe they just don't think too much?
Huh?
Like, things you want to say. Feelings you just need to get out.
Maybe you just pour it all out onto the page, and before you know it, you've got lyrics.
Oh...
That sounded kind of like something an artist would say.
Oh, really? See? I knew I could do it!
Ugh, that's so unfair... I don't really get it~
Huh? It didn't get through to you?
No, I got it. It's just... I don't have anything that makes me want to write like that.
The first thing that comes to mind is... Hmm... The fried shrimp I had earlier was huge, or something...?
Aha. It'd turn into a picture diary.
Hahaha, great, that's great! I like stuff like that!
Then someday, we'll have Mahoro write lyrics too!
Huh? Are you serious?
You bet! I can't wait!
...
Hm...? Huh... A dream...?
(The night the three of us started a band... around two years ago.)
(That feels like so long ago...)
Things I want to say... And also, feelings I need to get out, huh.
(When I wrote "Narasu", I probably didn't have the luxury of thinking about any of that.)
(I was too desperate just to get something down.)
(Now that I'm really trying to face this head-on, I can't think of a single thing I want to put into words.)
(It's a feeling I just don't understand.)
Kanata really was a genius...
Ah...! No, come on! Don't get discouraged, Mahoro Hamasaki!
I've decided I'm not going to give up!
Alright... I'll read through Kanata's lyrics one more time...!
25. In happiness
Side story · 68 linesI am... deeply sorry.
Um, Houka-san...! Please look up...!
What are you talking about? This is her penance, after all.
...
Me too... I need to apologize to Hotaru... I'm sorry.
Nagi-san, too...! Um, I'm fine, really...!
...
(I never imagined it would come to this.)
(I did invite Hotaru-san to the band because I saw such promise in her talent...)
(Hotaru-san had forged bonds with everyone far deeper than I had anticipated.)
(Had I pressed the matter, there was every chance that someone other than Hotaru-san would have left the band...)
(, And in the worst case, Hotaru-san might have left with them.)
(That is why I had meant to proceed with the utmost care, making sure we could reach an agreement that everyone accepted, but...)
I failed to consider matters carefully enough...
Things did work out in the end, but that was only through everyone's efforts.
Thank you. And please accept my apologies for the trouble I have caused.
So, that's what she has to say. What about you two? Hotaru, Mahoro?
Huh...?
Well... she did apologize. I forgive her.
!
But... This made one thing crystal clear: Houka-chan never took me seriously...
But just you wait. One day, I'll prove you wrong!
...
(Mahoro-san...)
(The girl who had once been overwhelmed by the blaze of Hotaru-san's talent.)
I can't tell if you just hate losing or what...
Oh, really? Well, I mean... It's true that I didn't do very well.
But that doesn't mean I should stop trying. Not ever.
(She should be one of the people in the background, just like me. So how can she...)
(No... Just as others cannot understand my happiness, Mahoro-san must have a happiness of her own.)
(What a curious person she is.)
Yes, thank you very much♪
Seriously? You're thanking us...? Whatever. What about you, Hotaru?
Um... I understand that Houka-san and Nagi-san wanted to apologize to me.
But... I'm no different. I caused trouble for everyone too, so...!
I could never blame either of you.
My...
...
Hah. You're still such a softie. If it were me, I'd have punched each of them once.
(Natsume-san...)
(I see her a little differently after all this.)
(That jagged, rough-edged passion inside her, fierce enough to wound anything that came too close...)
(It must be bound up with Natsume-san's wish. She, too, is searching for some kind of salvation... some kind of happiness.)
(And she can be so unexpectedly composed... She is far more interesting than I had thought.)
Why is Natsume-senpai the one in charge, anyway...?
Because I'm the only one who can stay neutral.
Ah... Yeah, I guess so...
(Nagi-san...)
(Is she trying to shield Mahoro-san... or, perhaps, herself?)
(It seems to be both, and I cannot help but be intrigued.)
(How very endearing she is...)
Nagi-san. Let us strive to atone together, shall we?
I know that already...
So, are we calling this settled? If you two have anything else to say, say it now.
Ahaha... Yeah. I'm okay.
Ah...
Hotaru-san... Please, do not hold back. You may say whatever you wish.
Um... Well... Houka-san has helped me so much...
If it had turned out that Houka-san was lying to me... I would have been so, so sad...
!!
Of course... I was on the verge of betraying the trust you had placed in me, Hotaru-san...!
I understand... Please rest easy, Hotaru-san.
...?
From now on, I will hide nothing from you. I shall tell you everything... and show you everything♡
W-What...?
Uh... She's kind of terrifying.
Heehee...
(I must never let you slip away from me again♡)



